Smarter than the Average Tranny Pornstar (only just..)

Well, I have good news, and I have bad news, and then I have good news again.


I guess I’ll begin with the first good news, but even before that, allow me to say, holy shit, I haven’t posted anything on this blog in over a year!! I guess I’ve moved a lot of what I would’ve posted here, to other places like my Patreon, my Instagram, and my Facebook.

Well with any luck, I will be posting here more often, I look back at lots of the posts on this blog and I miss this format. This is also the best way to really say certain things whereas in other places, it tends to get covered with whatever news happens that supercedes it.

So.. what’s the first good news? Well, there’s a totally new website coming for www.tara-ts.com aka www.taraemory.com. It’s no secret that my member’s site hasn’t changed it’s look (or it’s code) since like 2018, or 2013 or oh gosh, I bet parts of the code date all the way back to 2003. This website no longer really works on many devices, and I know, I desperately know, that that fact is killing my business model.

Something better is coming. It’s going to be less reliant on “selling porn” and it’s also going to show less “skin” in the free area. In fact, I have noticed that all the free areas really do knock you over the head with the smut, while at the same time, have no links or ways to get people to other social media sites and things I’m working on, like my Youtube Channel “Everything’s Tarable” and just basic stuff like my twitter, tumblr, facebook and Onlyfans. Right now, a one-stop-comprehensive-locale for everything Tara it isn’t.

I need the new site to better represent me as maybe something of a legend and a pioneer in the industry, as well as an all around internet personality. That’s the tone that the documentary End of Wonderland strikes.

Wait, what’s this? There’s a documentary about me, yeah, i bet you didn’t know because guess what, this site sucks at promoting these things!!

So the new portal pages will be much different from what’s here now. I’m tossing all that “fetish garden” and that very very very busy looking pages with the gears and all the text you can’t read anyway, and the video that auto starts that you can’t shut off or whatever awful shitty code that’s still on there.

The member’s area will take on a different style and tone, and now be called the “VIP Access” or something like that. And then inside the site, though a lot of it will look the same, it’s going to have a better slideshow interface for viewing pictures on a tablet or on a computer.

So what’s the bad news?

Well, so much on the website, let’s say the galleries that date from 2001 to 2010, are in very tiny resolution. Like 600 x 900 pixels, or maybe 1200 pixels in the largest dimension. They’re small by todays standards, and I can only imagine that anyone blasting through the site will get to the older shoots and can’t help but be disappointed as they are not as immersive as the newer shoots that are like 1500x 2000.

In my mind, some of this stuff is barely a saleable “product”, and a lot of those shoots are going to get the axe.

So then what’s the other good news then?

Well, they will be coming back, well, some of them will. Probably the shoots from before 2003 can’t ever me in amazing quality because the digital camera they were shot on was garbage, but since mid 2003 to 2006, I did shoot on a 4 megapixel camera, so if i work from the original pictures, I can make new final pictures at a pretty nice size. And stuff from 2006 on, it’s the same camera I use today, so I can reprocess those shots in full 1700x 2500 pixels and they look just as good as stuff I shot yesterday.

Think of these upscaled shoots as “digital remasters”, like they do with albums, or “Blu-ray releases” of tv shows where they go back into the original film footage and get a HD transfer. I’m calling these retro-releases, well, RETRO RELEASES. See, I’ve got a logo and everything!

And the first one of these Retro Releases is a reworking of 2010’s “My Throbbing Valentine”. instead of maxxing out at 1200 pixels, the new processed pictures come in at 2000-2400 pixels. And another thing is, yes, I have chosen fewer photos to grace these new versions of these sets. I’m going to try to trim some of the large 200+ shoots down to less than 150 pictures or so. 120 is the target range. So this means that a lot of them won’t make the cut this time around. But the difference in quality is impressive. And while this won’t be as noticeable on the 2009-2012 shoots, It will be a huge jump on some of the older 2006 stuff.

So I’m releasing this retrorelease as a “new shoot” and as we rewrite the website, it’s likely that all the 2010 and older content will either be in a special archives area, or taken off the site. Because you might have to miss these shoots to relish in them being re-released.


I know this may sound like I have slowed down, or that I’m getting out of doing work. This is actually a lot of work to go back and rework them from the originals. This isn’t the sort of thing where you hit a magic enhance button and it’ upscales everything. Those don’t exist, and besides, even if they do, it’s always always better to work from the originals. Also, the new versions of them will benefit from my improved photoshopping skills and all that. You will be seeing them with new eyes. Also, and very importantly, it’s a good way to show that the content of the site is constantly being upgraded and that the site is not languishing or getting stale. This way, I can concentrate on doing one kick-ass new shoot a month, and then fill the rest out with retro releases and other news. I’m pivoting my career away from straight-up porn, so it’s best that we see my work as the best it can be. It will be good for me to dip back into these classic shoots to remember what i did and remind myself of where I was and where I can go. They will probably help to energize my thirst to make new content too.

So that’s the good news/bad news/good news. I’m not sure when the changes to the site are coming, probably by March, but I wanted to get the new “My Throbbing Valentine” out today of course.

There of course is so, so so much more news, about “End of Wonderland”, “Up Uranus” and everything else going on, and the new version of my website should really be a better portal into my world.

-Tara

So it’s heading towards the end of the year now it’s been something of a slow year and nowhere as productive as I’d like it to be, mostly because of losing my studio last year and then Covid has sorta depressed everything.

But in the coming weeks while I have a few shoots in progress I think I’m also going to try to finish up a Xmas shoot I planned last year but didn’t make (It was designed, material was bought, but didn’t get very far and I already had two Xmas shoots anyway). But a lot of the work I have done that you all haven’t seen much of is the more spontaneous, selfie iphone type shots. This is generally what I upload to my only fans, but I despise the way that website is basically like a pile of papers and you have to slog through post after post to see something I posted a year ago, it’s really not like the way my own site is set up. But onlyfans gets a lot of my content that I make and upload from my phone, but it’s not what I’m the most proud of.

But I have amassed a HUGE backlog of not-quite photo shoots that weren’t big enough, or ambitious enough to qualify as real shoot. But still, they have some amazing qualities to them that would be a shame if they didn’t come out. I have released a few iphone selfie shoots before, and also I tend to add them into whatever shoot they match up with anyway if I bang off a few selfies while I do a shoot.

But there’s lots that don’t match up with existing shoots or are just camshow shots. And there are a lot of them. So I’ve taken these 1000 or so pictures and i have been organizing them into loose sets, though the pictures in those sets may have been shot over the course of a year. Basically whenever I do live camshows and I get dolled up, I tend to shoot about up to 30 or so pictures and I really do like the results.

And i will warn you, there’s a LOT of uh… how shall we say, HEAVY modification with filters going on here. In many cases they’re pretty obvious (look at how the earrings tend to get stretched out) and it’s funny because I think people who think I “don’t need work done” probably see these pictures and think I’m 20 years old, when in fact though i don’t look that much worse, the filters perfectly illustrate what I’d LIKE to do to my face via plastic surgery.

But anyway, consider yourself warned, there’s a bit of stretching reality here with these pictures, but not always. I guess it’s up to you to figure out which ones are tweaked and which ones aren’t! And considering that these are done on a many years old iphone 5s, I would think the “live fixing face software” has come a long way since then.

But like I said, I didn’t have nearly as many photo shoots come out this year, so I have thrown together as many galleries as I can with these, and will be doing some pretty big upload dumps before the end of the year. I will also be uh, placing them evenly spaced throughout the year, so remember when I didn’t have a shoot come out between April 30 and June 30th? Well poof! One of these becomes the “May 20th” update. Hence why this post is called “Cooking the Books”! The goal is that by the end of the year I will have added about 10-15 new photo shoots to the 2020 gallery and sucessfully retconned this year to seem like it indeed was very productive. But anyway, hush hush, don’t tell anyone!

The first three that went up are called “Lavender Locks”, “Green Hair don’t Care” and “Brainy Bimbo”, and they loosely follow their themes. I think the hardest part is trying to make these collections work as cohesive wholes, as there will inevitably end up being a random shoot of different looks that don’t fit anywhere else.

So, after I load up the 2020 gallery with a bunch of these (and you might have to poke around the site a bit to find them) I will then do an overhaul of the portal pages of the site, and yes, that means the teaser video which is like 7 years old now. I may or may not be planning on the next phase of my career to be a bit different, while still building upon everything I have done before. It’s possible, I may be drifting away from the whole “futanari fuckdoll” persona, but sadly if you don’t like that image, you might be getting a motherload of previously unreleased material from that phase of my career.

But yes, I am looking forward to what Tara Emory version 4.0 will look like. I think she’s a little more timeless an eternal, maybe not chasing the latest ahegao trends. BTW if you don’t like me trying to copy Belle Delphine, you’re not going to like a lot of these mini shoots, but that’s what we gotta get through before we get to whatever is next…

Which I know is going to be awesome one way or another!

-Tara

So onward and upward. I’m going to make this post a little short because maybe I really need to get moving on with whatever I need to do next, but I feel I should touch upon what else I did this year.

So first up was the Sponty shoot, which came out great. I guess what I used to post up on this blog has kinda moved over to my Patreon these days, but here’s a couple of in-progress pictures.

So the set and props came out really nice, and I did a reasonably good job of hiding the fact that this was all really shot in my dining room.

So the shoot itself came out pretty good, though I wish i was able to get the lighting to be a little more dramatic, and less “flat”. But it’s done, and I got my dining room back. The vials of fake cum, though, I did keep them for a “hucow” (human cow) shoot idea I want to do later.

So that shoot had been in the pipeline forever but i managed to do a few easy ones in the meantime, “Quarantine Cute” which is a sequel to “Nurse Pinky”, and “Firecracker” which was just me in a bikini out by the backyard BBQ.

I’ve done a bit of work on a few outfits that aren’t quite done yet, or are done, but don’t have a set yet built for them. Perhaps I will leave those for a future blog post update though.


The last shoot I did recently was for Halloween, and it was me as Elvira, in a shoot called “Scream Queen”. And this I manged to throw together in my house, but it does indeed suck not having a studio any more.

So yeah, good stuff, but onward and upward, and well, a lot of the behind the scenes stuff I’m only sharing with my Patreon peeps. There just doesn’t seem to be a lot of traffic on this blog, and I don’t think it’s because of a lack of updates. I dunno where all the action is these days, but there are better places to learn what I’m up to, like my Instagram or my Patroen or my facebook feed.


-Tara

Well, elsewhere, and in general this year has been really rough.

So where were we? Last I see, it was January when I made a blog post about stocking my website and ManyVids store full of my videos, and apparently I was complaining a bit that my website wasn’t doing so great as well.

And then a month or so later and well, my career and my plans for 2020 pretty much got mothballed. That doesn’t mean I have been inactive, just scrambling to figure out where in the internet I should be most active.

But I know, if you only follow me here you’d think I fell off the edge of the earth or something. I haven’t. It’s been a rough year, not so much because of the virus, just things in general that were supposed to happen, didn’t happen. And while I do know that many people have managed to reap great financial benefits from the lockdown, I probably spent far more time wondering what the hell I should be doing than getting comfortable on webcam.

As for my blog post activity, I have moved most of my work-in-progress blog posts over to my Patreon, I post a few times a week over there, and for those who contribute to the $5 tier, they get to see all the behind the scenes stuff on my projects

Those on the $10 tier get to see a selection of R-rated pictures from my shoots, though the entire shoot go up on my members site.

There’s also a $1 tier (sort of an anonymous donar) and a $25 tier (additional perks I haven’t figured out yet), but the main levels are the $5 and $10 level.

So, lets backtrack a bit and figure out where we all were in February

As everything started to fall apart and I was settling into my house, now overstuffed with objects and furniture and outfits from my old studio, I looked to reworking old outfits to make into new outfits. So “Posh Purple” was a drastic reworking of an old bellhop outfit from ages ago that didn’t even remotely fit me any more.

Come to think of it, I’m not sure this outfit fit me the first time around… 17 (?!?!?!) years ago.

I was skinny then, but more voluptuous now, that’s for sure

So that was one out of the way, but the outfit re-do really might have been a completely new outfit anyway.

Right after that, COVID-19 hit and it was hard to get materials to finish up some projects. It did take a while for my next shoot to come out, and I admit, I committed a cardinal sin by shooting in the same room/same background twice in a row! Oh no!

So this was going to be my Easter shoot- “Derby Doll”, though I also was thinking Kentucky Derby. By then I think they postponed the derby till later in the year, so I can’t feel guilty coming out late with this at all.


It was the biggest hat I had ever made. In fact, it started out even bigger (like 36″) but the flowers really weighed down the front. Which meant more would have to be on the back. Instead I removed them and cut a few more inches from the diameter.

The outfit was made from this purple gingham charoplex (Mexican oil cloth- one of my favorite materials), and the same sort of ruffled trim I have used for a zillion of my other outfits. I’m going to be very unhappy if that trim stops becoming available. I had gotten most of the materials for this outfit before the pandemic or much earlier.

I even toyed with the idea of this purple hair for it, but it was too red and didn’t fit with that purple.

The glasses were somewhat problematic as they caught the lights a lot. I might have to pop out the lenses when I use them again.

Most of April I was stuck re-roofing my house, and again that was a project that took forever but needed to be done. At least now it’s nice to have a roof that doesn’t leak but around April/May I was very not happy.

While I was wrapping this up in May, I made my first attempt to build an entire set for a shoot in my dining room, as opposed to using my rooms in my house for a backdrop.

So this was the Tails from Sonic the Hedgehog shoot I had thinking about for a while. Actually the orange fursuit started out life as a “Cats” inspired outfit, but ended up looking so much more like a fursuit, I abandoned that idea. And remember that upside down bathtub there, that is being hidden by the platform I built, but you’ll see it come back later.

This brings us to June I think. I have been camming off and on, and trying different outfits and looks, but didn’t really know what I wanted to do as my next shoot. I tried a live show with the Tails set before ripping it down.


But one thing I was sure about, i was tired of tripping over the bathtub that was being saved for a future bathroom renovation.

Maybe I ought to do the bathroom?

So there was about a month of smashing stuff, digging dirt out from under my floor, rebuilding the drain to the new tub, building a vanity mostly from scratch and using a free counter top, and teaching myself how to tile floors.

Here’s some early before shots: At this point I had already ripped out the shower surround, which was horribly crooked as it was a perfect cube, but my bathroom, like my house, is more parallelogram shaped.

So this brings us up to about mid-June. I have forever been working on making a costume of a well known hentai character called “Sponty”, who is this rabbit eared futanari girl who seems to always get herself into predicaments with alien sex robot fucking machines or something.

But I’m going to have to leave that for the next blog update. I didn’t realize just how much everything I did this summer!

-Tara

So between Christmas and New Years I pretty much had the cold/flu/crud that I guess was going around.  I was going to be indoors for a while, so I figured I’d take that time to  get everything out of the way to actually finish up, or at least cobble something together that resembles my Sci fi trans porn epic “Up Uranus”

But first a dose of reality.  My site ain’t doing that great, income wise.  And funny thing is, that it contains like all the videos I’ve ever done, which anyone can get to download for just one low reasonable price.  Those who join my website for the first time are treated with a treasure trove of pictures and videos.

Yet, somehow, on sites like www.manyvids.com there seem to be these suckers  fans who are completely fine with paying the same amount that a site membership would cost, on just a few videos.   Screw the membership website business model, I’m going to do this instead! , I thought.

So at the end of the year I decided I’d stock up my manyvids store with as much content as humanly possible.    And I stil had like 10-15 videos that way back in the day, I had shot in 1080i high definition, but had edited and released in crappy old Standard 640 x 480 Def.

And yes, I know, this ain’t 4k or anything.  This isn’t about looking forward, this is simply about getting everything I’ve done, out there in the best quality possible.   A lot of people probably haven’t even seen this stuff anyway, and I do like the selling- videos-one-at-a-time business model very much

Now I will get to making new content which of course will sell a lot better than a bunch of upscaled old videos, but I felt like shit for most of December and this was the best way to spend my time.  And no, my member site isn’t going anywhere, in fact all these scenes will be hitting my members site, probably in one big lump update in January.

And since I’m a bit lazy even talking about this now, here’s a few gifs that show what the scenes are.  Oh, should I say CW: Seizure warning?

So I did 14 or 15 re-edits of these videos in HD, and now I can finally say that I’ve officially scrape the bottom of the barrel.

I also then tweeted about this content  hitting my manyvids page, in a tweeting frequency that I’ve never quite done before.   And as a result I closed out December with the best month I’ve ever had on ManyVids.  Which got me into the top 75 by the end of the year, though I few times I think I scratched the top 40.

Still, it was a lot of work to maintain, and you feel you’re busting a nut to pull in $20 a day in video sales.   I do think that just a little more momentum and I can probably pay my housing costs with just the ManyVids revenue alone.

(Oh I should probably mention that all of this content went up on my clips4sale store, but I don’t really get a lot of sales over there.  Clips4Sale is on ok site, but seems a  bit dated, whereas ManyVids seems to have room to grow, with the ability to do live shows and just a more  up to date interface.  I’ve had months go by and nothing sell on Clips4Sale..)

Links here:

My ManyVids Store

My Clips4Sale store

My Patreon

Hopefully this will whet the appetite amongst the fans for new video content.  My two recent Christmas shoots had to be hastily done in order to get them out for the holidays, so no video was shot.

So the other reason to get this content out was to archive it off my computer(s) hard drive(s) and make room for new projects, which includes wrapping up “Up Uranus”.

Probably making a nice teaser trailer for Up Uranus would be a good thing.  And yeah, I know, people are tired of hearing about this, and how it should have come out like, 10 years ago, but on the other hand, more people don’t know about it than do know about it, so it’ll all  be new to them.   Most of the principal photography has been completed, and it’s just down to effects shots and editing.  As I get deeper into the project and closer to knowing when I can be completed,   I’ll have more to report.

-Tara

Oh hey, it’s me updating this blog good and timely.  I’ll leave it to the next post to tell you where I’ve been devoting my energies to, but for this discussion, lets look at what I cooked up for Christmas.

I feel like I’ve done every conceivable holiday shoot in existence, so any ideas left are probably going to be further refinements of older ideas.  And that’s fine.   There’s plenty of room for different colors and improvements to old themes.

So I fleshed out 4 or 5 ideas, based on various sketches I made, some which date back a few years.  First was a reindeer partial fursuit one, which would have taken advantage of some interesting reindeer facepaint.

Anyway, this one didn’t happen simply because the fake fur you can find in stores you’re basically limited to whatever’s available, and  none of the fake furs seemed right.  So then there were a few that are inspired by Dr Seuss’s Grinch story  (And no, I wouldn’t do a sexy grinch, that makes no sense at all)  First up was some sort of Who from whoville, but you don’t want to specifically look like a certain underage character.  And yeah, In my search I found plenty of mainstream Grinch porn that went there, though were all like “She’s all grown up”  Hmmmm…  I think I’ll just stick to a more unspecific Whoville character…
Which is how I came up with this anthropomorphasized candy cane lady.  To make this outfit work, I really wanted to emphasize diagonal stripes, and the majority of striped stockings I had were all just horizontal stripes.  But this one was a contender.
Next up was something that was going to have a more classic, long haired pin up burlesque look, using green red and white as a peppermint theme.  This outfit got as far as the hat, stockings and trim selection stage but the outfit didn’t happen because I just went for the simpler options.

Last up was something rather simple, kind of an elf on the shelf thing.  In pinks, white fur and a hot green and pink stripes.  Of course, all these ideas would change depending on what I could scrape up for accessories and what shoes I had to go with whatever.

From 5 ideas they got whittled down to 3, and then of those three, 2 happened, which is still much better than some years, where I had no Christmas shoot at all.  So the first outfit became “Fun With Candy Canes”

The outfit itself was nothing more than pasties, stockings and gloves, and all the effort was to go to this hat, which I didn’t quite know how I was going to make.  Do I buy a huge plastic candy cane lawn ornament and turn it into a hat?  I could easily see spending too much money on making this thing, or like making it out of fibreglass or trying in vain to make the curves and stripes absolutely perfect.  Instead I went the simpler route, just good ol’ paper-mache.  Which is still tough when you’re trying to turn flat poster board into compound curves.

Blown up balloons were used to support it from being crushed and to make the end tip of the candycane, all while making it really lightweight.   And I have to say, now that I have done fibreglass resin work (elsewhere, I was repairing a canoe) and paper mache, it’s really the same technique.  The newspaper strips act pretty much like the fiberglass sheets, and then the flour and water paste acts like a resin.  And I’m actually surprised at how strong the paper mache is once it’s all done.  And no, I’m not expecting this hat to be waterproof, or withstand being crushed if someone sat on it, or worse still, I was wearing it and smashed it on a low door frame.
But paper mache looks like crap when it’s finished, and can’t be sanded or make to look smooth.  Pretty much the only thing I could do is cover it with a velvety material and even at first, that didn’t work, but I kind of just worked it until it was, how should we say, consistently “handmade” looking.  The goal wasn’t to look super shiny like actual candy.

And an outfit like this, it all comes down to the little details, the pasties and bows etc.

So the second outfit to make it to Christmas ended up being called “Pink Christmas”.  This was the pink elf shoot.  This also depended on what arrived off my amazon wish list (thank you!) and what I could throw together in a room that matched things well.

This one stayed pretty simple, and limited to the accessories and not bothering to make a full corset.  It takes days to make a corset, and there’s usually multiple trips to the cloth store in the process.  This was a case of “what do i have?” “What can I make out of it?”

There were lots of scraps of pink fur (back from my Easter Bunny fursuit I made ages ago), and I hadn’t yet shot anything in this little short spiky green wig I had.  And glasses worked as well.  Add to this that I got a Pink Christmas tree this year, and this made a nice shoot.

So this was the first shoot I shot, and the end result is very good.  I had virtually nothing t touch up or alter in photoshop, except I tend to tweak the contrast a bit to suit my own tastes.  But partway through the shoot, my last operational remote control for my Canon camera was dying.

Yes, I often do more than one shoot in one session, but this one was pretty tough considering that my remote was basically dead.   As I self shoot all my own stuff, you’re pretty much screwed without that remote.  And I’ve burned through something like 7 of them in as many years.  The little “bubble buttons” wear out eventually.  I did try to walk up to the camera, hit the shutter and then run back to position, but even then, the camera does dumb shit like set its focus when you hit the button, which means it focuses on you 2 feet away instead of 7 feet away.  So I didn’t get as many gems out of this shoot as I would have liked.   Still though, the best ones in this set were some of the best I have done ever.

Which is pretty much all you can expect.  I have gotten two replacement remote controls since then, and one of them is an aftermarket one that has actual buttons on it that hopefully won’t wear out after 2000 shutter releases.

I got both these shoots up on my site, with a smaller “lewd” selection for my Patreon patrons.  The holidays were nice, but I had to clear something off the decks before getting in the huge project I want to finish…

-Tara

Well, this still isn’t quite my retrospective on everything I did in this space since I first moved in in 2007.  Actually I think I’ll shoot a little video about that instead.  Instead I’m just going to post pictures of how empty the space looked once I got everything moved out.  This was all like August 31st or something.  I’ll just let the pictures speak for themselves.

Bye bye, Wonderland!

And if you’re wondering why I get so emotional about this space, it was because there was one last kind of kick in the teeth as I was leaving.  Since it had stayed on the market for so long, the people that ended up buying it (to have some kind of woodworkers shop) bought it for a pretty cheap price, almost something that maybe I could have afforded.  Honestly if I had known it went for WHAaaaaaT?-  then maybe I might have fought a little harder to have purchased it. Instead I have to keep telling myself that the building itself was too much work to maintain or to make useable, and worst of all – simply too much space for my needs-.

But, looking ahead from this point, I had 4 shoots in the can that I had to edit, plus now I had to adjust to all the extra crap that I moved into the house, and well, figuring out where the hell I would shoot my shoots.  And yeah, it’s not lost on me that if push comes to shove, I really can bang out 4 ambitious self-shot porn shoots in 10 days if I really need to.

But wait, is there more that I have to report?  On to the next blog post…

-Tara