Upcoming photosets, “Squeaky Clean” and ???

So the first of a couple of shoots I did in Vegas just went up on my site.  Sorry I’m only now getting around to posting it, I’ve been sick as hell all February.  Just the bad cold that’s been going around.  For a couple days I was in a horrible twisted nightmare of a fever dream like laying awake in a pool of sweat smelling like ibuprofren, you mind going round in roundin circles, praying for death.  Whenever I have a cold or flu, it always seems to hit my brain first, then moved to other parts of the body once that fog clears.  I still have a little bit of a cough but I missed a weekend I wanted to be available on cam a lot,  and I’m scrambling to catch up.

But before that happened, I had gotten a new shoot out, just playing in my hotel suite bathtub, called “Squeaky Clean”.

It’s not a super special shoot, but if you’ve been missing some simple nude work, it gets the job done, and you people probably would rather see it than not.   Actually the last time I was in Vegas I tried a shoot in a hotel room which I’ve never released, since I don’t feel it’s up to snuff.  Another shoot I did was something simple during the day, wearing my Louis Vuitton corset.

I’m still editing these pictures, I don’t think it’s really my best look, but

So yeah, I’ve been pretty depressed about getting sick and just the way the whole world seems to be falling apart, and not feeling that AVN was the best it could have been, and not really liking much of the work I did down there.  I look at myself and I look tired.   If I can’t control the situation and lighting of my shoots (What I did in Vegas i had to make do with what light I had), I never really get results I’m happy with.

But it’s winter right now and I’m sorta in danger of losing my studio building and having to deal with all the stuff that’s in it.  I don’t have like an eviction deadline, but I’m not doing well enough financially in my business to  realistically be thinking about buying it, so that’s making me very depressed too.  If I work in my studio I just think of broken dreams (like that movie I was making) and dashed hopes.

Somehow I hope everything will work out, but I’m basically hanging on by a thread, when I know if I just had a little time I could get other money streams going in my life.  I can’t even imagine getting back into the job market.  All I can do right now is just try to cam and keep my site updated as much as possible and make as much money as I can there.

I don’t know, I’m really worried about the future.

-Tara