Incremental progress.. and ups and downs.. 

June has been a rough month for me.  But it’s important that I rear my head and let everyone know what I’m up to, and that I’m still alive and that the reason I haven’t reported much is simply that I’ve been far too busy to even report on the things I’ve been up to.

First things first, of course, is that The Satin Doll closed around the first week of June.  And with it I can say goodbye to a lot of drama (ooh, stripper drama!  The best kind of drama!).  I may write a whole other blog post about that, but right now I’m content to just have nice thoughts about the place, and the experience I had there.   There’s a chance something might pop up the replace it, a few nights a week I guess.

But more importantly, the loss of my earnings at The Satin Doll is a big financial hit for me.  When it was good, you’d be making good money for the 6 or 7 hours that it took out of a few days a week.  When it was bad, it was frustrating being there, just thinking that I was wasting time that could’ve better been spent on new shoots or, well, anything else.

Up to about mid-May, I was still doing well.  After I came back from Florida (Memorial Day weekend), it was clear the well had gone dry, and I didn’t make too much at all.  On one of those dead nights I got a few pictures of me there, though I never did get any video of me pole dancing.

As a souvenir of the place I managed to score a few of their lampshades.  There was talk about me sneaking in and getting a photo shoot done at the bar, but without a partner in crime to pull it off (ok, well I did have permission), it didn’t really happen.

So with  that gone, I decided to take a few weeks off to work on other things.  I involved myself in a car project that so far hasn’t yielded much thats drivable since this particular car ended up being a LOT more work than I bargained for.  However, I did a bang-up job on the upholstery so I ever get desperate for a normal job I can always go into upholstery (more on that later).
And somewhere around mid-month I did get my other recent shoot (now called Polkadot Overdose) up and running on the site.  It’s ok, I admit it doesn’t break any new ground, but then again I think I could just re-shoot all my old outfits in my new tits and y’all would be happy with that.

But I had gone and made myself a list of unfinished projects around my yard and life that were like 75% done.  It was a big list, and I’d get distracted a lot (which is why I seem to be surrounded by unfinished projects).  I’m very flighty when it comes to projects, and I get easily bored, and then alternately overwhelmed by life and project, projects projects.

So I like to shoot porn in my backyard, which is away from the prying eyes of neighbors.  However, everyone has seemed to decide that it’s a shortcut to a convenience store and coffee shop, so I wasted so much energy on just being angry about that.  Like really, you kids (and adults who should know better), stay out of my yard.
So I spent a lot of time building fence, out of bamboo, which I’m imaging will also double as a great background for a bloodthirsty Ooga-Booga cannibal shoot someday.
So this is all bamboo harvested from my own yard, as I have a patch I try to um.. contain.. when I mow around it.  Sadly, to make my life even worse, my (ride on) lawnmower needs like a $400 repair, and when all you have to use is a push mower to mow an acre and a half (and you really don’t have the budget to hire someone to do it), suddenly life gets very hard in the heat of the summer.

So there was losing the Satin Doll gig, having to deal with fencing out the neighbors (because really, I don’t want people walking in on my nude sunbathing in the backyard), and lots of manual labor I was happy to do (the secret, I found out, is to mow your lawn at dusk, when the sun isn’t so powerful).

Somewhere in there I experienced a few days of feeling very numb, and I don’t know if I had exerted myself of I was just pushing myself too hard.  I was also having a lot of anxiety about my loss of income (though I should’ve just jumped on webcam – more on that later). I woke up one day -I think June 17th- feeling like absolute garbage.  I tend to also get dehydrated overnight but some magic horrible combination of things was making me feel like crap.  I called my doctor to ask if some recent change to my prescriptions might have caused this.  They didn’t seem to think so but said maybe I should get myself to the ER.
I got into my trusty Volvo, and drove the 6 or so miles to the nearest hospital.  Only like a mile away I started to feel very light headed, and anxious.  I somehow I knew I wasn’t going to make it, and wether I started to hyperventilate or not I don’t recall.  All I know is that I had a thought in my head that I was dying, and waking up with my head on the passenger seat, and my car off the road, in a city.

Somehow I think I knew I wasn’t going to make it and started to start to park the car, but instead I was gone fully up onto the curb and into a parking lot and the front bumper was gently up to rest against a metal post.  I regained consciousness and someone in their truck was calling the police, about my “accident”, which to him looked worse than it was because my windshield has a bunch of cracks in it (I think he thought I had hit my head).
My first though of course, after realizing that I hadn’t died, and just had fainted, was fuck, I can’t leave the car here- the last thing my sorry broke ass needs is an expensive tow/impound/insurance hike.   Wether the post had stopped me or I already had my foot on the brake I don’t know, but I backed up, and not far from where I went off, was an open parking spot.  I managed to do this before the ambulance came, and as far as anyone was concerned, there really had been no accident at all (there was no damage to my car, and the metal post had just been shifted over like 6 inched in the ground- and was so rough looking I think the thing had been hit a bunch of times anyway.
So you’d think that the hospital visit itself would be noteworthy, but all I can say is that they got me on IV fluids, I felt like shit for about 5 hours, then suddenly felt normal and back to my old self.  CT scans and all sorts of tests really didn’t reveal anything, so if anything was wrong with me past just simple exhaustion and fainting from anxiety I have no idea. And it seems like doctors don’t know either.

And apparently ambulance companies don’t know how to do their jobs because a week later, I got a $1800 bill for the half mile ambulance ride (and I’ve ridden in an ambulance before with my insurance so I know it’s not supposed to cost me this much). Somehow they had the bill written out to my old boy name, which I legally changed ages ago, so I have no idea what’s going to happen when I try to use Tara’s insurance to pay for it, because they’ll probably think I’m trying to use someone else’s insurance.
Anyway, that’s something I will deal with later.
I pretty much took it easy for a while, editing the Polkadot Overdose shoot, and figuring out how to pay my bills.  I’m a little late paying my mortgage payment for July, but I’ve been aggressively webcamming on so I know that if I put the hours into it, I can pretty much make up for the lost Satin Doll income.

So back to my list of things to do.  One of them was -finish the spaceship for UNS that I started making a year ago and it got put on the back burner and sorta fell behind the stove.

In a marathon, almost overnight session, I made some serious progress on the ship.  Why I decided to give it this much detail, well, I hope when I start shooting the spaceship flying shots, I will really make this film into something special.
The technique for all these “metal” panels is taking many many pieces of silver spray painted poster board and then using spray glue to stick them to the body of the ship, which (in order to get that compound curve bulbous V-2 rocket profile – as opposed to just a simple rocket tube), was a complicated combination of carved foam and that Good Stuff spray foam.  Then along the edges of the panels I would take a nail that was secured in a pair of tiny vise grips, hold that in one hand and gently hammer the rivet dibits.

Sadly over the course of sitting over a year and just expanding and contracting in the air, the spaceship was already starting to fall apart, and a lot of the panels were falling off.  So a lot of the panels also have tiny pins holding them in. Long story short, I need to finish this fucking thing and do all the shots with it before it falls apart completely.  Since there is a big space battle in the film (yes, there’s a lot of shots of us on the bridge lurching to the left and then to the right), it’ll work, just shoot the battle shots last, and trash the ship.
What remains to be made for it are the cockpit cowl (ahem, the mushroom head) and the rocket engine pods (the balls), and of course, some more painting (numbers, stripes, whatever), and landing gear.  The thing is built with a threaded rod running through it so I can film it doing barrel rolls and all that.

Otherwise I had it in my plans to get a few shoots done by the end of June but somehow that didn’t happen.  I still have these giant cherries in my studio waiting for the last bits I need to make that outfit come together (which are actually some more tattoos I want to do for the whole look).. In plan on doing this fairly soon.

Right now I’m working on a fetish Unicorn/Pegasus shoot that will be called…. wait for it….  ”Bronie’s Wet Dream”.  If I haven’t offended people with anything else I’ve done, well this shoot might as well do it.

I experimented with various ways of getting a rainbow look to my wigs, and something wasn’t working at all
Sometimes too much is too much, and less is more, so I chucked that idea of combing wigs together for a cheap-ass (but works so well) rainbow wig from the party store.  The outfit will be spectacular based on the outfit itself, not the stupidly big hair (I have no idea what I was thinking there) .

And the whole outfit so far.  Right now I have to re-make the angel wings because they’re over 10 years old and falling apart, also they don’t really have the shape I want.
I was going to make “hoof boots” but I think I’m just going to fine tune the look I have here and run with it. I can’t be getting myself hung up over every goddamn detail like I usually do.

I don’t quite know what I’m going to do for a background yet.   Since I’ve sorta veered away from the whole my little pony look and more towards a Lisa Frank look, I’ll come up with something, though I’ll try to keep it simple.  In any respect, I’m getting sick of the pink and white striped background I’ve been using too much the last few years (I think it’s time to paint over that wall and do something else.

So that’s where I am at now.  I’m off to get a few supplies today to wrap up this outfit, and I’ve also got a few concept for outdoorsy shoots I’ll probably set up at the same time as this  (one with roller skates sitting on this very nice park bench that I recently restored)

I’m also restoring /recovering this sofa, which will likely be in a shoot sometime.  I can totally see blond hair, purple latex catsuit…

Found another couch (this was the night of the day  spent in the hospital). I can’t resist a roadside find, as long as it’s an actual antique.  This will look fantastic in a nice apple green velvet.

And let’s see, what else did I do this month.  Oh, I replaced the clutch in my 2cv, and this was only 2 days after my hospital visit.
This is an split engine/gearbox/put clutch in/bolt it all together/what are these extra bolts for? job.  I managed to do this literally the day before heading to a car show weekend.  I think the stress of getting ready for this little mini-vacation was probably what put me in the hospital.
Oh, and this month I built a stone wall, in my never ending landscaping project…
Oh god, what else?  Did I ever mention that I also manage my mom’s property (and she’s in her 80′s), which means mowing and right now – taking care of a shit ton of invasive plant species (Ailanthus trees- millions of them, and poison ivy vines thicker than my leg).  Actually the #1 reason I haven’t done a shoot the last few weeks is that I’m recovering from poison ivy I had all over my legs.  Mental note Tara,  stay out of the fucking poison ivy.

But I do occasionally have time to pretty myself up for a camshow.  I’m sorry if what’ I’j doing is not making content for my site, but I have so many other things going on that it’s sorta taken a back seat.  Right now it’s webcamming 3 hours 4x a week just so that I can get some sort of financial cushion.  The good thing about webcamming is that I do know what I can always make money there, as long as I put the effort into it.  Now wether that will grow or dry up I have no idea.

If I look a little tired or worn out in my pictures, it might be to all the activity going on.  I’m going to try to force myself to be lazy, which is tough – and for some of the laborious things I do, get someone to help me so I can -I hate to say it- chub up a bit.  I’m feeling a bit too fit these days.  It might help me to put on a few pounds of fat, actually.

And people wonder why I’m not super social.  People who don’t know me also think I’m sitting around on my ass all day because they don’t see a lot of results.  Well, those people can basically suck a bag of dicks as far as I’m concerned.  My lack of reporting on events is more to do with being too busy and not having a free minute to report on it.  Which is the opposite of people who tweet about every little thing but don’t really do anything at all.

Yeah, and someone said I don’t have ADD?  Uhh… yeah…

So today I gotta clean the house and reorganize, because of course, the house goes to pot when all these other things are going on.  I’ll probably jump on webcam later and then tomorrow, the 4th I think I’m actually going to take the day off to actually be in the presence of other people (which doesn’t happen much).

Anyway, be patient.  As crazy as you think my life is, this is just the tip of the iceberg.  If I can ever get on top of my finances and devote some time to writing it, you’ll read about it all in my memoirs, which as you can expect, would be a graphic novel, and extremely time consuming to make…


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I’m back with two new shoots!


See, I told you’d I’d be back, and just squeezed two shoots in that I’m going to release pretty rapid fire, so they’re the “May” updates.

For all the thing going on in my life, sometimes I can cut through the crap and do two shoots in a day.  In this case I did one shoot before going in to work at the Satin Doll (though business has been so bad this past weekend I don’t know if it’s worth it for me to go in again at all), and then one shoot after leaving work.

One shoot is a vamping up of the old “Polka Hearts” shoot, with the hat from “That Red Dress”, which earlier this month I turned it from a simple big hat to one of my hat extravaganzas.

I had planned on shooting this shoot on my pink and white striped wall in my studio, but I think we’ve seen that wall enough (just as we’ve seen my pink and white striped wall too many times too).   It actually ended up working  better shooting this shoot in my living room, on my rich crimson velvet fainting couch.
The name of this shoot will be (I think), “Pearls and Polkadots”.  As you can see, I have a new fetish, which is uretrhal beads.  I’m also using pearl necklaces as anal beads too.  The whole shoot came out really well, even if it’s a bit over the top with the foofy Marilyn Monroe hair and the big hat.  But hey, it’s what you expect from me, right?
So yeah, I can totally see going into any of my old outfits and turning them into huge, bold  productions.  I have quite a wardrobe of outfits that maybe didn’t pop quite so much the first time I shot in them.
I could literally get a whole year’s worth of photo shoots just out of sprucing up some of my classics, and to be honest, I don’t think my fans would mind one bit.  So truth be told, I should just get off my ass and crank out as much new content this summer, even if I feel that I’m “repeating myself”.

My other shoot was another outfit that didn’t quite live up to it’s full potential the first time I shot in it like way back in 2008.  I think back then it was called “Valentine Boudoir”, but I decided to dust it off for a new shoot.   Turns out the white pvc was flaking off and I had used a sharpie on the inside of the pink vinyl, which bled through and made blue stains on the corset.  So perhaps this is the last hurrah for this one, but with the whole pink and blonde anime hairstyle, it works really well.

Sadly like I said, the white pvc was coming apart all over me.  And even though I have an AC unit in my studio, it barely can stand against the hot lights, so an hour into the shoot, I was pretty sweaty, and there were white flakes of pvc all over various parts of my body.

Thankfullly there’s Photoshop to take care of that.  You should all be grateful for Photoshop.  Some other studios and website would just put up the pictures without any sort of touch up whatsoever.  So this shoot will take a bit longer to get up to snuff.  And actually, if I had never told you there were problems with it, you probably would never have been the wiser.
This is another shoot featuring uretrhal beads, though these ones were actually too small, and they fell out a lot.  Oh, the things I do to my body in the name of erotic art!Another shoot that features my gaping pussy.  I guess if you’re going to be comitted to being a real life hentai futanari doll, you might as well go all the way.

So both shoots will grace my site ASAP.   I’m not sure which one will go up first, but I can tell you that it will feature polkadots and beads!



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Oh hey, I never did much of a report on my trip, did I?

Well I should have, but the iPhone version of WordPress seems to only like the pictures from the selfie facing camera
So here’s some selfies from fetish factory’s 20th anniversary event  


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Two more weekends (at the most)

So the ace had finally come down and it looks like the official closing of the Satin Doll will be the first weekend in June

I’m in for this weekend but to be honest, if tonight is a waste of time, I’m just gonna pack my locker and get on going with whatever the next thing is. I really loved dancing at this place, and it kept me out if bankruptcy for another year (a year ago things looked very bleak).

But at this time if I’m not making any money here, the it’s obvious that it’s keeping me from going the other things that will make me money ( like updating my website more often, or live camshows via streamate)

The real worry i have is that I’m going to freak out with my income getting cut in half.   And when you freak out it usually makes you more likely to be unproductive.   So I really need to stay productive to keep from freaking out

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Burnt out. But that’s ok, I’m going on vacation…

So I don’t think there will be a website update for this month.  And my message to my fans is “Tough luck, I’m burnt out”.

I’ve been doing this website for 15 years and I’m tired of it.  I’m not in a good place right now.  I seem to be surrounded by unfinished and unfinishable projects.  Most of my energies have gone to working at the Satin Doll 3 nights a week, mostly because there’s a very real threat that it won’t be in business in about a month.  It would simply be one thing if they were considering getting rid of the TS dancers because of all the problems I’ve described before, but there’s an interested buyer in the property, and long story short, if we can’t make it work, the owners will sell.  And seeing as the rats are fleeing the sinking ship, I’m guessing we got about another month and then it’s all done.

However things are not all gloom and doom.  There’s some good of fashioned nightmares to add to that.  I inexplicably decided to start working on part of my house a month ago, without really figuring out how I was going to wrap things up.  So now I’m at this point where I completely lost interest in finishing replacing the floors in what was my second bathroom.  Then on top of that it looks like I won’t have anything bigger than a pair of scissors to cut my grass with everything, even my car seems to be breaking around me and I just want to scream (well, I already have had a few screaming fits) and get the fuck out of here and away from all my problems.

It’s hard for me to see it but maybe there are some things that I really should consider victories, though to me, they just seem like not nearly enough.  I have made some incremental progress on a few outfits, but as of yet that hasn’t translated into any new shoots for my site, which is why I’m saying that I don’t think I’m going to get much done on my site this month.  If anything, I really do need a vacation.  I need to recharge my batteries and be around like minded people and rekindled my interest in fetish and costuming and all that.  I mean, working at the Satin Doll pushes certain buttons but I do admit it can be a bit degrading and I’m not relishing the idea of working there much longer anyway.  If it does close, it’s probably just about the right time for me as I’d rather do performing then sleazy lap dancing anyway.

Thankfully, that vacation I’m speaking of is coming tomorrow, though I’m stressed out just getting everything ready for it, and beating myself up for not getting done nearly the amount of stuff I wanted to do as I planned.

Fuck this, I’m off to Fort Lauderdale for Fetish Factory’s XXth Anniversary weekend.  And yeah, I’m not sure what I’m going to wear.  At the very least, I’m packing “Strawberries and Cream”, “Sugar Rush” and a new variation of “Polka Hearts”.  My biggest concern is how the hell I’m going to pack those gigantic hats safely so they don’t get destroyed in my luggage (it looks like I can, though it means bringing a old-style suitcase just for two hats and whatever squishables I can gently pack around them).

I also did make a new sort of bimbo-themed nano-bikini for the pool party which came out nicely.  I can’t tell you how much I  just want to switch off my brain and be a pretty fucktoy this coming weekend.

Sadly, though I don’t have time to do any shoots with any of these outifts before I go.  And even if I did, the editing process is a 2 day slog so it wouldn’t hit the site until after I got back.

UPDATE-  Anyway, what I wrote up to that last paragraph was on Tuesday, I was admittedly feeling strapped for time, so I actually changed my flight to arrive on Thursday instead of Wednesday.  I had actually accidentally booked my flight a day too early and it had become clear that I really needed one more day before leaving, rather than having one more day sitting around doing nothing in Florida.

And I actually feel a lot better because I got to relax and take the rest of Tuesday off.  And that left Wednesday for tying up loose ends and packing, and actually instead it turned out that I got inspired to finally make that tattoo art I’ve been meaning to make.

Allow me to backtrack a bit.  A while back I made an outfit I’m caling “Cherry Bomb”, and I reached a stopping point with the set, which was a giant set of cherries that I’m going to sit on.


And the cherries are these big exercise balls that I haven’t quite figured out how I’m going to attach the stems from them or keep from from moving around while I sit on them.  They’re sitting in my studio right now.  But also I really had my heart set of having some ink on my arm when I did the shoot, even if it wasn’t really a real tattoo.
So I had bought some inkjet printer tattoo paper but hadn’t got around to doing the art I really wanted to do, which is nice because I had that extra day today and finally I was fucking inspired to do something.   I did a first version of the artwork which wasn’t working.  I think all the black outlines around the details which really didn’t need black outlines around them was killing it.
So I scrapped it, forced myself to change my style (and looked at real anime and tattoo art for inspiration), and came up with this:
I was so overjoyed with how this loooked compared to the first version I whipped up another page of smaller tattoos, including one for over the breasts.
Feeling pretty good about what I got accomplished in a day (and pretty much all from inception to completion in a day), I printed out my first sheet, only to have the black ink bleed horribly.. Turns out the paper I bought was for color copiers and laser printers.  FUCK!!  I had spent all day on something I really wanted to have ready to go for Florida and now it was all for not, unless.. Shit I thought, there’s a color copier at Staples and they close in 20 minutes and it’s a 15 minute drive.

So I made it to Staples and got my copies, but I went ahead and used the screwed up-bleeding black copies as a test and tried out some of the temporary tattoos on myself.  The results don’t look half bad, and keep in mind these were made from the messed up prints.

So yeah.. I got some amazing stuff done, but right now the priority is Fetish Factorys event this weekend, then the shoots of me as a inked beauty when I get back.

And with some of the new looks I’m doing, this really is a completely different Tara..
See in in Florida and when I get back!


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Winter is not quite over with yet, with “Fireside Sweaterdress” and “Ski Chalet”

Even though I’m enjoying the well deserved spring, I don’t think that diminishes the erotic appeal of my two latest shoots.

One is “Fireside Sweaterdress”, which was a leftover from January, that I didn’t know if I wanted to release or not.  I was in a bit of a technical pickle with the shots.  I was trying to have enough light on me, at the same time as having the fire in the fireplace show up.  The pictures (as they came out of the camera) came out too dark, and I trashed the shoot and instead did “My Fur Closet” instead.

But I futzed with the pictures and I made them work. I was really only left with a few options.  Either forget about the shoot (which had some great poses), restage the shoot (a lot of work I didn’t want to do), or try to make them work.  So I chose the third option.  This of course maent that many of them came out pretty grainy, but it also gives them an interesting film-like quality to them.  It also degrades the color pallate to a very few colors, which somehow worked for this shoot.

The end result it ok, and I managed to salvage 100 of them for my update.  I sorta realized I HAD to have an update since I was distracted a LOT this month.  But still, I had another shoot I really wanted to do, in my spare room that has a very “ski lodge-y” look.  And this shoot continues (and improves upon) the blonde bimbo look of “Fireside Sweaterdress”.

Since I know I’m going to renovate this room sometime this summer, the knotty pine panelling is gonna go, so best to do any shoots requiring knotty pine backdrops NOW.   And though yes, spring is here,  Just imagine we went spring skiing, or better yet, summer skiing in one of those Rocky Mountain states where you can go skiing in the summer.

This time, I strived to get the makeup, lighting and everything perfect- even though it’s mostly a nude shoot when you get right down to it.

Oh, and check out that permagape I’m working on.  There’s a secret to it, but I’m not telling what it is!

So the 100 pictures of “Fireside Sweaterdress” just went up.  And “Ski Lodge” or “Ski Chalet” of whatever I’m going to call it, will go up as soon as I can (with any luck, still ^technically^ in April.)  Then it’s onto a bunch of more fantastical shoots.  I’ve been busy spring-cleaning out my studio and getting my next sets and outfits in line.  See you soon!


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Celebrate my birthday with me at The Satin Doll!

Tonight is my big night!  I’m inviting all my friends and fans to come celebrate my birthday with me at The Satin Doll Gentlemen’s Club 35 Aborn St Providence RI tonight!

And yes, it’s true I dance there most Thursdays through Saturdays, I will be cutting back my schedule to special events like this, so I can concentrate on my career and doing more touring and burlesque shows.  It’s possible I may do one night a week, but I feel that I’ve accomplished what I wanted from my experience at the club, and it’s time for me to seek greener pastures.

Now is not the time to be timid.  I’m going big or going home, and it starts with tonight.  Burlesque show!  Showgirl extravagance.  I’m taking over the club tonight because well, someone’s gotta do it.



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My new shoot “Tabletop Treasure”

So before whatever the Next Big Shoot is (now that it’s warmed up and my studio is far more useable), I just uploaded a simple lingerie shoot featuring my “Holly Golightly” look.

Here are some samples.

It’s a nice shoot, but even I admit it’s hardly ground breaking.  The real fun is in designing whatever I’m working on that’s going to top outfits and concepts like “Strawberries and Cream” or “Sugar Rush“.  Like I’ve been saying for a while, I want to get into the groove of doing like one amazing new shoot a month, then one down-to-earth lingerie shoot, and then probably another shoot that’s a re-imagined old outfit or updated older concept (like Bimbo Peep).

Webcamming is going well on Streamate.  It seems like some of my most popular shows are the ones where I’m just laying naked in bed looking sleepy-eyed and making kissy faces.  But some camshows will be big extravaganzas too.  I figured out that my wifi from my house will reach my studio, and it’s just about strong enough that I can do camshows from there, which opens up a whole play area to use for camshows, like my dungeon equipment and well, porn sets!

And what’s going on with the Satin Doll?  Well, I don’t know.  I had heard some rumors that I reported on, but the word at the club was that none of that was really quite true, so for the moment all I can say that the TS Revue is about as it still is, for about another month.  The club is closing one way or another, and wether it’s sold or it’s going to repoen, it will at the very least be the end of the way things are now.  If it isn’t sold and it simply renovating, then there might be a few TS nights, though I don’t know if it will be more along the lines of a gay bar with some drag shows or what.  It might be that it will cease to be a decent money maker for me (if there aren’t any lap dances or stuff like that), but if it has a decent stage with stripper poles, there is still money to be made in stripping.

However, if it becomes something more akin to Jacques Cabaret, then on one hand it might be a perfect place for me to perform burlesque.  There is also some talk about a new strip club in town might be willing to try a once in a month TS night.  Just as long as they promote it and push it, there IS and audience who will go to it.  You just cant try to do TS nights 7 nights a week and expect the same thing every night.


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Webcamming is back!

Well, it took a little while to get the ball rolling, but I’m finally dedicated to getting back on webcam.

A while back I had joined Streamate and Chaturbate but didn’t have the hardware to do it right.  So I’m pleased to announce that I will be doing camshows on Streamate as frequently as I can. (basically I needed a new-er laptop and hadn’t had to budget for that for quite some time)

I’m still in the process of working my way around it, though last Wednesday night I went on and just through people stumbling onto my profile and paying a little here for a few minutes here and there, I almost pretty much paid for the MacBook I had just bought.  Which made me think, “Geez, why didn’t I do this earlier”.  Anyway, better late than never.

So, I have heard that through streamate, I can actually let my own website members can camshows for free, but I have no idea how to do that yet, and it’s going to take some time to learn the ins and outs of how to camshow most effectively.  There are people who have been doing it for years who know a lot of tricks, and when its best to cam, etc.. etc.  I’m hoping it becomes more profitable than the Satin Doll, which I do have some not terribly good news about (which I will leave to another blog post)

So, I’ve got lots of cool ideas for camshows.  First off, I can easily see doing them in costume, and even recreating some of my recent shoots (pirate, strawberries and cream).  I don’t know how much better an elaborately costumes camshow will go over, but the sense I got just from being on Wednesday was “Omg you’re a legend I cant believe you’re on”.

I also have this cool idea where I’d love to do live camshow feeds of my shoots as I am doing them.  I think these would go over really well, and I’d hype them about a week in advance.  Even though I won’t be able to interact with the viewers as much as a regular camshow, these shows of my photo shoots will only happen once in many cases.

Now that spring is finally here, I’m anxious to work back out in my studio on whatever my next big crazy photoshoot will be, and getting back to constantly topping myself with each shoot, and rebranding my career and myself as sort of a living hentai futanari sex doll.  I’ve been getting kinkier and kinkier ideas and I think people are going to go nuts when they see me live in HD with sound and everything.  Also once the leaves and flowers are out, I think people are going to enjoy my outdoor camshows in my backyard!

So Monday evening, April 6th, look for me on streammate.



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Anyone who follows my blog who is a real person and not a spambot…

Reply with a cohesive comment to this post, and I will mark you to NOT be deleted from the database.

Otherwise, I am going through and deleting pretty much thousands of users, 99% of which are spambots.  I’ve tried Captcha and all sorts of things and they don’t seem to be preventing spambots from signing up (though they’re preventing them from commenting)

The best I can do is to make a list of users I know are real, and then delete the rest.  In some cases it’s easy to know which ones are spambots – You’ll have jibberish names and jibberish email addresses like “”, but some are difficult to tell.

(I don’t know where is but any user with an email address from there is getting the chop, that’s for sure.)

So, if you’ve never commented on a blog post before, and DON’T want to be deleted, reply NOW.  If  you have replied before, there is no need to reply to this message.

All the real people who respond will be saved, raptured away and your clothes left behind  The others will be LEFT BEHIND!  Or maybe it’s the other way around, and those left behind are the real users, and the annoying spambots will be raptured away!


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