New shoot, called “Burlesque or Bust” which just went up on my site.
Yep, business as usual.
New shoot, called “Burlesque or Bust” which just went up on my site.
Yep, business as usual.
Okay, so harumph, I got some shoots done. First off, there’s this one, which I’m calling “Carousel Rider”.
It’s not quite red, white and blue (for the 4th of July), but its pink white and blue (and a few purples in between), which is pretty close.
Looks like Trigger is getting a little playful, and Seabiscuit is getting jealous!
This was a big set, and I shot over 300, so I’m currently whittling it down to the best 200 or so. I still have a pretty big slog to go through, so it’ll be a few days. Bottom line is, I’m back, and soon enough I’ll show you some samples of the other shoot I got done.
This little troth I’m in is taking a bit longer to get out of.
I may be backtracking a little bit here, but after I came back from Florida at the end of May, I was a little disillusioned with my career. It wasn’t anything specific that happened In Florida, just a general feeling I had when I got back, and I took advantage of the spring weather to switch gears and work on some car and yardwork related projects.
I had a car show weekend coming up in June and I worked a bit of a few cars but really not got anything specific finished in time. The magnitude of all the projects is starting to wear my down. And then the car show itself was a thing I attended with family members which has a way of sorta cramping one’s flamboyant style.
And it’s not anything specific that my family does to me, I mean, they more or less accept me as I am, but also expect me to still so things around the house that utilize some aspects of male gender roles. This usually means that I need to maintain their property and it’s more than just mowing the lawn. Its’ dealing with a lot of crap i don’t want to deal with
Sadly these are responsibilities that i can’t really get out of, in fact me doing them is me “doing my part”. I don’t think they really understand how doing this stuff doesn’t fit in with my gender identity. Sure, I don’t mind doing some things that I carry over from my boy life, but not everything.
And no, for various reasons, I can’t get someone else to do them. Please don’t offer. I have my reasons and I can’t accept help in this area. I’ll elaborate a bit more later maybe. I was considering making a fundraiser for something that needs to be done that will free up more time for me to do shoots and save me time and effort and backbreaking labor, so I can do shoots instead.
I do have a bunch of solid concepts that I’m working on for shoots. Though none of them are easy because they all all ambitious. But I know the lack of new content on the site is making people lose interest. Couple that with CCBill needing to deduct a lot from my paycheck for my Visa and MC merchant renewal fees and I’m not looking at good summer unless I turn things around.
Fuck, i hope I’m not coming down with Lyme disease again. Oh great. there goes my anxieties. Like I said, I’m working on some concept and ideas and it looks like we have a nice solid week of nice days and cool nights so this is the time to get some content out of the way .
Problem is, the model isn’t ready. A big part of me being able to do what i do is based on me having that independence, and yes, even a certain amount of narcissism. I have to get myself into the Tara Emory Universe to be comfortable back in front of the camera. It’ll happen, hopefully in a week or so.
I’ll report more later.
Heeeey, Y’all probably have noticed you I’ve been pretty dormant the 2 weeks since I’ve been back from Florida. I just sorta needed a break from the adult business to pursue other projects. And actually, the other projects I worked on actually made some money, so I guess that means I can call that work. In any event, I wasn’t “screwing around”. But I did sorta fell out of feeling constantly horny all the time. Probably Florida took a lot of that out of my system. In any event, I needed to recharge AWAY from porn and fetish and everything I do. Now I’m getting back in the swing of things, and have gotten on cam the last few nights to try out some interesting new living-hentai looks.
I’m thinking about sets to go with these things too, and really don’t want to settle for less than an assault of pastel colored candy stripes. Lets see where this direction takes me?
So, expect a shoot that’s some thing brand new later this month. Till then, I really want to push the live shows, and maybe try another marathon. I’m shocked by how many of my members have yet to catch my show. There must be a better way than twitter to get the word out that I’m camming.. What’s the best way to tell my members that I’m going on cam?
So, I’ve been super busy the last few days, getting ready for Florida.
I do apologize for not getting video update up. I have two videos already edited that are in the can, and a further two videos that I captured all the video on, so I got really close to the update.
I thought a lot about making something brand new and really amazing for Florida, but all my really ambitious designs I have are also extremely bulky (like picture huge furry purple skunk tails or robot. So the newest thing I did was do some alterations to the old Goldicocks outfit. I’m playing around a bit with painting stripes on this really cool iridescent pink PVC, and I’m replacing the light pink bows on the old version with these.
I’m sorta at some point I’ll make an outfit made of nothing but this, with a matching corset, but for now I’m just going to add these to Goldicocks and make a variation of it. This is sorta what I have in mind .. (well, not just the costume, but the scene as well!)
The other outfits I packed, I’m amazed they all fit in a carry-on and checked bag. Including the huge hat, which hopefully won’t get too damaged. Plus like 4 pairs of stripper heels and like 4 or 5 wigs I think. So all these costume fit in. Pretty much the only way they did is because I pretty much didn’t pack a single pair of sensible shoes or a mundane outfit at all. If I can squeeze it it, maybe I’ll stick in a pair of pants and a blouse.
Watch this blog for updates, as well as on my other social media. I’ve got a somewhat better phone situation this year, so I’ll be hammering the social media stuff home pretty hard.
But now it’s off to sleep, which is rare before I fly out. Usually I’m up all night but the first parties are tomorrow night, so I want to be well-rested for those.
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So, a little over a month ago I was in a pretty crappy place, and I even said some crap on social media about basically walking away from the business.
And then I got my shit together and came up with three shoots, Black Swan, Blossoming Bouquet and Another Slice of Cherry Pie. Lets bask in their beauty again because I’m not sure when things will calm down and I can move on to whatever is next…
And I wish the rest of the focus of this post was about the awesome things I have coming up, but it won’t be. So allow me to touch briefly upon some more of the good news before I move on to the bad news.
So I don’t quite yet know if getting back to the three shoots a month routine has a tangible effect on my website income and memberships, but I can’t imagine it would make them worse. And I did do a pretty good job of hyping the shoots on social media and basically getting my visibility up there. It may (or may not) have also just improved my karma in the grand scheme of things.
So, at the end of the month was my birthday (April 28th) and I am so very thankful that so many fans wished me a happy birthday and gifted me so many things off my Amazon Wish List. So many things that I think my wishlist is depleted and I’ll have to go and go add many things to that again.
But I think maybe there was something working on another level here too, and that’s what I mean when I speak of karma. You see, I was not planning on going to Fetish Factory’s Anniversary Weekend event in Florida, which is in Ft Lauderdale on Memorial Day weekend. Way back in December the host hotel had filled up, and since they do a hotel takeover, it’s really not the same if you can’t get into the host hotel.
So I had given up on that, and besides, I had a crappy winter, so I didn’t really have the money. Usually I get hit with a big tax bill in April, so the springtime is often a squeaker while I get back to productivity.
But then a friend who was going to FF told me about another mutual friend who was seeking a hotel roommate for the event. Would I like to go? Well, YES, as long as i can still secure a ticket to the event and secure a plane ticket before they become too expensive.
Then I had my new accountant do my taxes. For some reason (and maybe this reason is not a good one , but more on that later), I was going to get a refund this year. And then around my birthday, not only did I get some wonderful gifts off my wish list, but a few fans sent me some unexpected money orders too.
So, it’s like the universe was telling me, YES TARA GO TO FLORIDA, here’s what you need to go. Another friend going to the event had a pass already. Unexpected windfall from fans, And a tax return to boot. And oh, 3 shoots out this month so that’ll probably keep the members happy (well, as long as I can resolve the server issues, which may or may not be in the process of being fixed as I write this).
So yes, I’m going to Florida. Which maybe that seems like a frivolous vacation for most of you, but for me it’s very important to keep my visibility in this scene, because I’m in this scene as a career, and I’m in it for a long haul. My hope is that in a few years or so, I’ll be enough of a presence in the fetish scene that maybe, maybe I can be emceeing events and performing at more of them. There’s a lot of evidence to support that the longer I stay in this, the more my cache grows, the bigger my legend becomes. But enough about me, lets talk about me for a while?
Okay okay, you get the picture.
On a smaller scale, This coming Sunday, May 7th, I’ll be headlining at the Trans AllStar party at Club EGO in Providence, like I have several times before.
Okay, everything that you read in this blog post before the EGO flyer above, I wrote like 3 days ago. Actually, I was going through some server issues and my server guys moved the entire site over to another server at the same time I was posting the original blog post.
See how the title of this is that every silver lining has a cloud? Well, apparently, the entire second half (the bad news) vanished in the either in the server move.
What that second half was about is (and I’m going to see if I can retrieve it from the server guys tomorrow during business hours) was pretty simple, and I don’t really want to rewrite it.
Basically, my taxes are being audited by the state. (not the IRS). It’s a nightmare, of sorts, though i really haven’t done anything wrong. Actually, it might be a blessing in disquise that the original second half of this blog post vanished, as it was mainly bitching, whining and complaining. Suffice to say I am going to be spending a bit of time in the next week or so building up a case to the tax office showing them where I spend my money. And I used to be coy about my business affairs with them, just out of respect that I doubt that they want to have to view porn. Well no more! They want to see where I spend my money, they’re gonna have to see, regardless of if they need to wash their eyes out with bleach afterwards.
So yeah, that’s what I’m going through right now. It’s sorta taken the highest priority and if I’m “phoning in” my performance tonight, so be it. I think me “phoning it in” is probably more ambitious than other people’s Big Productions.
Has anyone noticed the site being occasionally slow or unresponsive? I’ve been seeing some slowdowns on the site in the last few months. I’ve called my server guys and they deleted a bunch of “zombie processes” but that hasn’t stopped this from being slow sometimes.
The server guys say everything is fine, but I’m not so sure. Considering that the code on the site is really simple, and it’s not any more graphics/memory intensive than it’s been in the last 5 years, you’d think it would run lightning fast today, but I swear when it’s slow, it’s the slowest Its been in a decade.
Maybe I’m being paranoid but I seem to recall a while back there was a lot of talk about if Net Neutrality went away, that the powers that be could make different tiers of speed on the internet. Am I just imagining things to think that has anything to do with it?
Please give me your feedback, discuss.
PS. working on a lot of stuff, I’ll be making a real blog post very soon!
So hey, finally the new Cherry Pie shoot is done! I think it came out pretty good!
If you compared it with the old version of this outfit, I’d say the new version is way more trashier and truck-stop-waitress sluttier! The hair is bigger, the skirt is puffier, and this time there’s cute puffy sleeves too!
Oh, and roller skates too, why not? Of course the big thing was the set I took time over the course of a couple of months to put together. I had been putting off doing this shoot for a while because there were a few details to work out and a few props that I was still collecting.
Obviously the shoot is not about the set, but the set needs to be expansive so that there’s always something behind me. Sometimes that means that the details don’t really matter. In retrospect, I really did not need to bother with putting the bistro table on the left and getting a salt and pepper shaker and napkin holder, and a glass dome to put over a cherry pie, which I took a couple hours to bake – when really those things are only visible in a few pictures… yeah, I know complain complain, again…
None of that is really as important as the performance of the model, which I’m happy to say was pretty good overall. So what if the set is mostly made out of cardboard and number plates, we all know that’s not really what you’re looking at.
And since the cherry pie I (barely) baked came out so messy, I figured go for the whole messy thing all the way.I’m such a clutz trying to wait tables on roller skates, that means sooner or later I’m gonna drop cherry pie all over the floor! What a mess!!
So I hope you enjoy this shoot as much as I enjoyed making it (and for how long it took to come to fruition!). The entire set will go up next week on www.tara-ts.com as the April 30th shoot. And with that, I’m very happy to say that all this hard work has gotten me back up to my impossible-target of 3 shoots per month (lets say every 10 days). After quite a bit of a dry spell this winter, I think we’re all happy spring is here, and let’s hope I can keep this momentum up!
So, yes, I’ve gotten two shoots done this week, though the black strappy outfit shoot (Black Swan) happened in two bursts over a week long period while I was working on other sets and getting other outfits ready.
What happened was about a week ago I shot a bunch of pictures, but wasn’t feeling like I was getting the variety of poses that I wanted, so I quit after shooting about 130 pictures. I decided I’d look at the pictures and see what I could improve when I resumed shooting. It turned out that my backlight/rim light did not fire in most of the pictures so it was a good thing that I was able to go back and do more. I also didn’t like the way the skirt was a bit too big and draping weird off the underwire support under it. It’s kind of hard to describe but if you can imagine the tutu/skirt going horizontal and then being too large for the underwire so that it draped down a few inches, it sort of made it cover a little bit more than I wanted it to. So I was able to trim the skirt and make it a little tighter and stiffer, and tutu-like. Here’s the changes, subtle but effective.
Yeah, you can barely see the rim light here (its most noticeable in the strands of blonde hair), and I swear in half the pictures I shot in the second batch, it didn’t go off. Frustrating damn lights, I swear they are only firing like half the time, and the light sensors that detect when the other lights are flashing- are in weird places where they can easily not catch the flashes from the other strobes. Anyway blah blah blah, complain complain. Bottom line is that when you self shoot your own pictures, compromises are inevitable.
Aha! In this one you can actually see the rim light doing a little bit. I wanted it to make the black bow and the tutu skirt pop, but it’s barely doing it. Anyway, at least in the reshoot, I got some nice sex toy shots and some good sitting/squatting poses. Every pose can’t be a standing pose, that gets dull pretty quickly.
So I’ve got like 300 pictures to slog through, and with the lighting problems (though sometimes when the strobes failed to flash, it gave some dramatic results), it should be enough to yield a good sized shoot. However, later that night I powered through and downed another 2 RockStar energy drinks and did this little number, which again, was a “simple” shoot that turned into something gargantuan.
You may recall how my recent Valentine’s Day shoot that I did in March (whoops!) had these really cool sleeves that looked like bouquets. Well, I liked the idea so much I did it again. But I needed them to match a pre-existing Big Hat I had made. So, several trips to the craft and dollar stores in the area cleaned out their stocks of white and light pink fake flowers. About 37 sticks of hot glue later and a lot of burned fingertips, and the result came out quite nicely indeed.
So this shoot has sorta zipped to the front of the line so I could get it out to more or less line up with Easter weekend, though I’ve gone and called it “Blossoming Bouquet” because that works and it’s not using up any of the other words I’m saving for other shoots with somewhat stronger concepts. You can imagine that I have a piece of paper with infinite combos of names on it, with really amazing combinations like “Pollyanna Cumdump”. “Bloomin’ Harlot” and “Fuckdoll Junction”. When one comes up with names like that, they end up driving their own concepts, so I’ll just let your imagination run wild with what those shoots might end up looking like.
So I’m about halfway through editing about 160 chosen pictures for this gallery, but there’s a fetish club night tonight and well, it’d be a shame not to actually wear this outfit out to an actual club, so I’m off to that I think.
So once I get these done, they’ll hit the site pretty rapid fire, plus there’s some video I’ve been sitting on and still a shoot I did with Christian out in Vegas that I haven’t worked on yet (it’s huge, so I really have to trim it down to the cream of the crop). So yeah, stuff’s in the pipeline and the dam is about to burst. That’s not to mention that my Cherry Pie redux set is all done and I’ve gone and made the alterations to that outfit, so that shoot in on tap for next week. Like I said somewhere else, I do plan on doing 2-3 shoots a week in the coming few months so I’ll have a big backlog of content to work on once it gets too hot and I just want to shut myself in a tiny, air conditioned room. Here’s one more for the road…
See you very soon!
Note- The entire set when up Easter evening, at about 156 pictures. I ended settling on “Blossoming Bouquet”. As for the other shoot, for some reason, I keep coming back to “Black Swan” and I think I’m just going to stick with that.