“Flamingo Fuckdoll” and “Bitch Skool”

“Once more, into the breach!”  Well more like “Once more, into the pink and white striped background! ”      Okay, well with added green polkadots that is.
This costume is a new spin on the old “Pinwheel Pasties” outfit from waaaay back in 2012  This variation adds pink and white stripes, a collar, more pinwheels and just an overall amplification on the pink over-the-top hentai look.

Yeah, I know, it’s a look that I’ve done a zillion times before, but this is a nice spin on it and moving from the direction from reality to fantasy (the best way I can describe the main difference between the ’12 and ’18 version).

This shoot went up today, Aug 18th and there is also some video shot that’s being edited right now (It will be a upcoming update with videos of “Red Domina” and “Scarlet Fever”).  Not every shoot will be like this,  so if it’s not your taste, just wait a little while, maybe the next one is to your liking..
So I think I might have mentioned that I had been trying to get ahead of the game, as I’m not sure if I am going to lose my available studio space before securing/building a new space.  The best thing for me to do now is to crank out as much content.  Hence an early sneak peek at my back-to-school shoot “Bitch Skool”.

Okay okay, so it does have pink hair and some hentai overtones, but it’s still very different from “Flamingo Fuckdoll”.
I think this shoot came out excellent and it will come out either in the end of August or the beginning of September.  There may or may not be another shoot that comes out this week before it.  Depends on how I feel, but at the very least it is nice to be ahead of schedule for once.
See you soon and keep watch for my next video update which will contain videos of (at least) “Red Domina” “Scarlet Fever” and “Flamingo Fuckdoll”.



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Workin’ Hard. “Dripping Latex Doll” and “Scarlet Fever”

So, I’m trying not to think too hard about my current predicament with my studio, come what may.  Perhaps I can pull a Hail Mary in my career and manage to buy it, or perhaps it’s far easier and better overall to just build my own backyard garage/studio that I can build perfectly to suit me.  Either way right now the best and most important thing I can do and should do is throw myself into my work.   So that means that every potential shoot I want to do out in my studio, I should do NOW as if I’m going to lose the utility of the building in a matter of weeks or months.  So here’s the first result.

We’ve actually seen this catsuit before, but I’ve dressed it up with some pink latex polkadots and really ramped up the candyland bimbo look and all that.  This catsuit started out life over 10 years ago as something that arrived off a wish list, and it I haven’t thanked whoever it was that got it for me, it was only because the paper trail to figure out who got it for me was extremely hard to follow.  Whomever you are/were I do thank you if that thanks was 10 years too late!

I ended up calling this shoot “Dripping Latex Doll” not just because of the wet look of the latex, but also because I was sweating a lot under those hot lights.  Thankfully you can’t tell from the photos, but I won’t forget that it was hot.

So that outfit actually had been done for a while, but sadly during the shoot I tore a bad gash in the leg of the catsuit.  The latex wasn’t deteriorated or anything, it was just one of those situations where the sweat of my body actually made the latex stick to my skin more than float on top of it.  I should have used a proper lube between my skin and the latex, but I didn’t and that meant that while kneeling for some shots, I stressed it out and ripped it.

The tear in the leg happened  about 1/3 of the way through the shoot, but it didn’t wreck the whole shoot. I just did my best to hide it and in the pictures where it was visible, a little photoshop fixed that up.  You’d never know there was a tear in it if I hadn’t told you.

However, I wanted to wear the outfit out to some club later that night so I managed a quick repair job.. It won’t quite be the same, but it’s fine enough for me.  Considering that adding the pink stripes and polkadots gave a new lease on life to a decade old catsuit, I can’t complain.  While I was out, I did give the people at the gas station something to gawk at.  People were like “Where are YOU going off to???”. To which I replied “A kinky party!”

“Dripping Latex Doll”  went up the last week of July, and as I said, I’m throwing myself into my work.   I’m trying to bang out as much content as I can, while I can, and if I’m lucky that might even mean some weird things might happen like I get my Christmas shoot in the can months before it need to be released.

It actually takes a lot less time to shoot a photoshoot than it does to edit the pictures.  So if I get sets and outfits all ready to go, I can make like maybe 5 to 10 shoots a week if I’m just really efficient about it and don’t get bogged down in worrying about editing them yet.

Technically you’d think that would also mean that I shouldn’t be making any brand new outfits from scratch.  For some reason, that didn’t happen with this next shoot, which I ended up calling “Scarlet Fever”,  And I’m really happy with the results, even if I hadn’t really wanted to make a brand new outfit and brand new hat (probably my 7th or 8th HUGE hat that I so far made).

I had set up some furniture out in the studio in front of my pink/maroon damask wall (its looks like wallpaper but it’s actually a stencil) and found myself unhappy trying to make any existing outfits match it.

I do have this pink and yellow outfit I haven’t done a shoot with, but felt that it wasn’t right for the background.  Something like this needs a background that’s more whimsical and less Victorian, don’t you agree?

Since yellow/pink didn’t feel right, I just made a new outfit from scratch, although much of the raw material I had kicking around for a while.  Most of the flowers I had bought previously, and this pink satin with red polkadots had been waiting around in my pile of fabric for the perfect outfit to come along.


So everything kind of came together because if you can probably tell, I’m not the sort of person who would settle for a few random mis-matched pieces of lingerie and make a shoot out of it without paying any attention to the colors in the background or the colors I was wearing.

In fact, the only thing that was out of place on this shoot was that in reality, the oriental rug was mostly blue.  Actually it’s the same rug I used in “Harlequin Romance”

You’d never guess from looking at the pictures, but I just tweaked out all the blue of the rug and pushed it over to a less obtrusive greeny/brown.  If you saw the originals with a blue rug you’d probably agree that that clashed horribly.

Once I got them all done I was unsure of the title for it, as I like to come up with names that instantly remind me of which outfit it was.  I do this because often I use the same patterns for various outfits, and in this case, I believe the corset is the same pattern I used for “Daisy Dick” and “Strawberries and Cream”.  When I think of those names, I know exactly what outfit I’m taking about.  So I could have called this “Red Polkadots” but I’ve done sooooo many outfits with polkadots it would be hard to remember which one.

“Scarlet Fever” was a suggestion from a fan and at first I wasn’t enamored by the name (as yep, it’s a hideous disease with a rash”, I kind of warmed to it eventually,    And I guess this outfit is red spots all over my body so that’s sort of the same thing, right?   In any event, the name stuck and now I can’t think of calling this shoot anything else.  Certainly if I just called it “Slutty Cumdump” I would never know which outfit I was referring to.

That’s sort of the thing about my names for photoshoots.  I actually have a big list of awesome names that immediately conjure up completely different ideas, so many of those names are being saved for future shoots.

Both these shoots came out on my site a good 10 days apart, and I’m trying to stick to a update schedule of 3 updates per month, and sometimes one of those will be an update of videos.   Getting this out in time actually puts me on schedule, and now it’s on to the next batch.  Actually now that I’m caught up, I’m thinking already of my autumn shoots and now it’s time to get ahead of the game!

Because really the best thing for me to do is get ahead and overproduce content in case I don’t have a studio a few months down the road.


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Out of the woods, back in the woods…

Where do I start?  I’m not doing well? I’m doing fine?  I’m energized to do things, but damn I’m tired?  Uhhhh….  I guess I’ll start off in some sort of chronological order here.

So I edited a bunch of video and got that up around July 3rd.  It was a nice flurry of activity which (in my studio which isn’t easy to keep cool in the summer) when we get cool nights I need to take advantage of them.  Sure, there’s an AC unit I can run, but it’s barely adequate and makes a huge electric bill.

This is something of a problem.. If you go on cam in a room that you have to run AC to counteract the hot lights, you better at least make enough money to offset the increase in your electric bill.. But i digress..

But yeah, I got a lot done that week because I’m under a lot of stress.  Again, I don’t know where to start. I might be losing my studio space.  I rent the space at a really low price, but the owners want to sell the building and want me to make an offer.  Trouble is, I’m not nearly as confident about my business plan as I was, say 10 years ago when I moved in and had grandiose plans to take over the trans porn world.

Now, I’m far more cautious.  Maybe I can’t buy this stupid building (it’s a 30′ x 70′ warehouse) after all.  Maybe buying it will just put me more into debt.  I’m doing a rounds to the banks now and see what they say. Maybe somehow I find investors in my business?  I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m doing, to be honest.

I probably should make a separate post about my studio woes.  I can’t even organize my brain well enough to come up with a plan to be honest.  Because you see, I’m being squeezed on both sides.

I’m not sure how much I told people about this, but i’m in a double world of hurt with my house.  You see, I switched insurance companies last year in the effort to save like $150 a year or something stupid like that.  I was completely fine with the old company but my agent moved me to another company and they sent someone round back in October to like, I guess check on  how many bathrooms I had and all that junk.  Then a few months later, they made a litany of crap that they wanted me to do to the house to improve it’s condition, or else.. or else I don’t know, they’ll drop me, I guess?

Anyway, that short list was something like hire a roofing company to assess the condition of the roofing shingles, which are like 20 years old and a few fell off, and well, you all know that there isn’t a roofing company in existence that isn’t going to tell me that I need a new roof, KACHING!   And then there was a  bunch of siding work they want me to do, which is fine as I planned on doing that anyway.  Most of what they want me to do are things I already planned to do, but I had hoped to get another few years out of the roof, at which point I would be more than happy to hammer on another layer of roofing shingles.  The house is 250 years old and the rafters are 4 feet apart and the boards spanning the rafters sometimes have spaces between them, so the job really needs to be done by hand and not by a team of bozos with nail guns.

I’m sure if I paid for all this work to be done, it would cost tens of thousands of dollars and yay, I’m sure glad I switched companies just to save me $150 a year.  YAAAAAYYYYYY.  Fuck my life.

And then on top of that, at the worst possible moment, the guy who own the studio I rent, is like “Well I’m getting older and we’d like to sell the building ASAP” at precisely the same time that I’m under financial hardship as to potential tens of thousands of dollars of work the insurance assholes are making me do… so I don’t know how I’m going to not snap under the pressure here.

Sooo…. I’m either going to snap and run into the insurance company with an AK-47 and go crazy… or I’m going to politely tell them to fuck off, or maybe I’ll regain my composure and tell them that I can do “A” and “C”, but “B” ain’t gonna happen.    They sent me two letters basically asking the same stuff, and one had a June deadline and another an August one, so I’m going to default to the August one.

In any event, all this stress was weighing heavily on my shoulders when I went off to the woods in Vermont for a regional Burning Man-type event (a “burn”) called Firefly.  This was 5 days out in the woods with a bunch of hippies and trance music and LED and crazy art out in the woods.  I myself used this as a way to express myself through my own crazy costumes and presentation as sort of a walking statuesque work of art.  Here’s a couple of selfies.  They’re not the best selfies, as the first two days were hot and humid beyond belief and the discomfort comes through in the photos.

After the first two nights,  some thunderstorms blew through and the weather was much much nicer.   I had a great experience but it’s mostly a personal thing that I’m not really sure how much I want to share on social media anyway.  I was able to at least forget about my troubles for a little while.  My only regret is that I didn’t get many photos in the Valkyrie outfit which I’m told was pretty impressive and yes, very painful to wear.  Actually maybe that’s my subbie fetish, some sort of masochistic pleasure gotten from wearing painful outfits and painful shoes?  There was definitely some sort of endorphin rush

But I’m sort of in the middle of it, so it’s completely impossible to describe my fetish to people, perhaps it’s better from the perspective of the people observing me?

So I got back from that, and I’m all like, -OK Tara, the best thing you can possibly do now, if you want to have any chance to save your studio, is to spend every waking minute out in the studio working on shoots, or unfinished projects out there.  Maybe even get my website output back up to the levels that I had years ago before my  productivity seems to have slowed down.   If nothing else that at least uses up the space and I can sign off on props and or backgrounds that I’ve been holding on to forever.

So I came back all energized, but also really tired.  Like reaaaaaaaallllly tired.  Back at Firefly, I did probably walk around the event in the woods, yes, on trails, in yes- wait for it- 5″ or 6″ heels.  And yes, I’m very very very very very good at that. In fact, I seem to have ankles of steel now, and I have this feeling that if I was about to twist my ankle, I could just flip my body upright just from my strong ankle muscles alone. Here’s a sampling of some of the footwear I brought, because nothing will kill the harmony of an outfit like having to wear like hiking boots or Birkenstocks with it.

Yeah, 7- 10 miles a day of walking meant that I was nearly dead for the first couple of days back home, and when I finally got some energy back, for some inexplicable reason, I couldn’t shake the feeling of wanting to be in the woods more.  And I have a great little nook in the woods on the edge of my property (actually partially the studio lot which is adjacent to my house lot).  So even though I should have been doing shoots and outfits and all that, I found myself clearing land.  And that land was covered with poison ivy.

And even though I wore long sleeves and pants and gloves and all that, somehow, I’m now, you guessed it – covered in poison ivy as well.  Which scuttles my plans for new shoots at least for another couple of days until the rash subsides.

So I’m not in a great place right now. Sure, I was able to find some lingerie that covered up the rash and managed to make myself feel pretty last night for some late night chaturbate camshow action, but I tell ya, it’s tough to get into the feeling pretty mood when your skin is all scaly.  Maybe, I can do a latex catsuit shoot or something. That might be a happy medium.

And i have this terrible habit that when I get my mind on one project- even if it’s the project that I shouldn’t be doing- shifting focus onto something else is like trying to turn or stop  a steam locomotive.  Yep.  Not gonna happen.

I don’t know why I feel compelled to clear land and build stone walls and do a bunch of stuff that really has no bearing on the work that the insurance company wants me to do.. I guess I’m just procrastinating, or dreading doing the actual work.  Or worried that when I peel off the 70 year old cedar shingles on the side of the house, that I’ll uncover a horrifying amount of carpenter ants or something I would have been happier being ignorant about.

So I’m energized, but maybe for all the wrong things.  And my skin is currently a mess, so i can’t even do a proper shoot in that “Nympho Nymph” outfit that you see me in the woods in  (that’s actually also the reason for clearing some of my woods, so that I can do some awesome shoots out there).  I’m stressed out because of my house and squeezed between a rock and a hard place with buying or having to give up my studio space.  And maybe on top of this, for all I know, I might actually have a re-occurence of Lyme disease or something (you know, there’s always a zillion deer ticks outside).

What I really could use is some sort of boost in my career, be it from more attention from fans, or increased memberships, or just a feeling that it’s all going somewhere and getting better and better and not worse and worse. Trust me, it’s very tough not to feel old in this business and this is coming from someone who was probably too old for porn on the day i started my own site 15-odd years ago.  Still trying to figure out what the next phase to all this is. I mean, people should be hiring me to emcee their trans friendly fetish events or something, goddamn it.  Trouble is, I gotta pound the pavement to make things happen, and there’s only one person here on Team Tara, and my plate is already unbelievably full.

Anyway I don’t know what I’m going to do. I sorta feel like my dreams are slipping away from me, and here and there I feel like I have the energy to make that final Hail Mary pass and see if it goes anywhere.  Something needs to happen, and that something might have to come from outside somehow.  I don’ t know what I’m going to do because my natural inclination is to just shut down.  And seeing as how tired I am, that sort of ends up what’s happening.


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“Red Domina” and 4 new videos.

Hey new stuff!  I called this set “Red Domina” although I’m not all that dominant looking in the photos.
Its a pretty hot shoot, though I guess I did have a red and black color scheme on my mind from the abandoned Molotov Cocktease shoot that didn’t happen (and probably won’t)

So I am going through a lot of stressful crap with the possibility of losing my studio space.  I’m not sure if I really want to go into too many details right now, though I did mention it on my tumblr blog.  Put simply, I might only have my studio for another couple of months, or who knows, it could still end up being years.   So regardless of what happens, the best thing for me to do is to get as many shoots done as possible and stock up on content.

This is going allright, though a summer heat wave finally hit and sucked a lot of energy out of me.  My studio building is a little too big to cool properly, which means I can’t really use it in the hottest days of the summer.  If it ends up that I do lose my studio, my other option is to build a smaller studio, something that suits my needs a bit better (and easier to cool)

With this push to get photo and video shoots done, there’s also a new video update up on my site!   Videos for “Jizzoline Queen”, “Let them Eat cock”, “Chastity Circus” and “Harlequin Romance” just went up.  I also shot for “Diamond Disco” but that didn’t make the update.  Also, I will be shooting video for “Red Domina” as well.  The way I usually do things is that I shoot the photos in one session, and then maybe a few days or even a week or a month later, while the set is still up and the costume is still handy, I go back in and shoot the video.  Sometimes this means that a set is up for months and months afterwards.

Once I’m satisfied that I’ve got enough video, then I break down the set and put things away, and it’s on to the next projects.  Sometimes though, I don’t get any video, which in the case of  “Tentacle Grape”, everything was super janky and falling apart that once I was finished with the photos, I decided that I’d just remount a whole different tentacle shoot if I wanted to revisit that theme.

So enjoy the new updates. I’ll make a separate post about my studio woes, as it’s a little too complicated to go into here in depth right now.


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You win some, you lose some. (“Harlequin Romance” and… ?)

Well, I had a little spurt of activity lately, where I did a shoot and a half last week.  Or maybe just one shoot because my attempt at a second shoot really didn’t produce anything worthwhile and I’m not even sure that it’s worth going back into to finish it.

So, let’s start with the good, because well, chronologically that’s how things panned out anyway.

So I made this outfit ages ago (actually almost 10 years ago!) to match a Venetian mask I bought somewhere. This outfit has held up really well as I rarely wore it to events and since it wasn’t made out of PVC, it didn’t just naturally fall apart (some of those earliest ones are sadly gone now.  I do get people asking me what happens to my old outfit.  Well, sometimes they just disintegrate into a pile off goo, really)

When I did this outfit before I called it “Carnal Carnivale” and I have to say the big difference between how I did shoots 10 years ago and now – other than my plastic enhancements – is how I’m much better at getting down to business of showing the dirty bits, right?
But yeah, the new version “Harlequin Romance” is good stuff.  Right to the point, and using my studio instead of my house gave me a little bit more freedom with the lighting and so forth.

But this shoot came out really well. It’s another one I did with my two camera set up. And as it sometimes happens, I had another area set up for another shoot, so that I could take advantage of my makeup and also being in the mood to take more horny pictures.  You’d be surprised how sometimes it takes me a while just to get into “porn star” mode.

But the second shoot.  eh.. not sure it was meant to be.  Backtracking a little bit, I had made a great Molotov Cocktease outfit in something like 2014 for a sci-fi/anime convention, but never really figured out a way to do a shoot in it.  Actually, if you google image search “Molotov Cocktease cosplay”, this picture of me at Arisia comes up pretty much on the first page. (actually image #20)

Anyway, I had an old beat up Jaguar parts car that I’m probably going to get rid of this year (its a parts car to another one that I have in better condition that’s actually right-hand-drive which is kinda cool)  The windshield was broken so I made a few “bullet holes” in it and thought it would be cool to set up the lights around it and do the shoot at night.

Well, things didn’t go that well.  The flashes on my studio lights are activated by the flash on my camera, and this tends to work pretty well in a studio environment.  But outdoors in the dark, I guess there’s less light to bounce off of things, so about half of the pictures didn’t trip off the flashes at ALL.

Then it turned out that sitting on the roof or on the hood of the car put me, the model in very awkward places where normally it’s not good for the model to move closer or further away from the lights.

Also, the fact that the only light sources outside were the studio lights meant that something as simple as going back to the cameras and hitting the buttons meant that I was working in the dark, so that was Yet Another Thing to worry about when I’m really supposed to figure out the best poses and how to stay horny.

So, if you’re wondering how the pictures came out, I think I shot about 50, and of them, only 25 or so had usable exposure, and then out of those, here are the best two.  And if this was a regular shoot, even these two wouldn’t even make the final cut.

To make things worse, the eye patch meant that since I had to get on and off  the car and constantly fiddle with the camera settings, I either had to endure not having any depth perception and risk bumping into my camera on tripods (potentially fatal if one fell over), or keep flipping it up and messing up my hair, etc.

After about an hour of this bullshit, I decided to call it quits as there were way too many variables there to screw up a shoot, and getting myself into a good groove just wasn’t going to happen.    I also sorta  had to hold my catsuit together where the cleavage is because I might have to rethink the way I had sorta double sided sticky taped them down (which works ok if I’m at a con, but not so much if you’re constantly bending over and stressing the catsuit.

So I gave up on this for now.  Maybe this is just one of those shoots that I can’t bang off on my own.  I’m sure many people are wondering why I don’t always use a photographer for my shoots, and I guess this is as good a place as any to describe my work process and why I do things the way I do.

First off, I’m NEVER ready when I say I’m ready, so the idea that I’m going to be ready a 8pm on a Wednesday night when so and so it coming over to shoot. Well, that rarely happens.  Shooting on my own time means just what I did here, that I was able to shoot when I was ready (like 1 am) after hours of experimenting with the lights and whatever.

Secondly, As you know, I do pretty much all the costumes and pretty much all the set dressing, and well, all the lighting, so a photographer really has to be adding something to that mix otherwise they’re really no different than a self timer.  And I have had a few photographers who literally have just had their camera on a tripod and shot the pictures where everything else was “me”..  Which made me wonder, what do I even need them for?  I know that sounds kind of dickish, and geez, why would anyone want to work with me now, knowing what a primadonna I am… but….  if there’s literally no difference between a photographer and self shooting with a tripod on my own time, I’ll choose the latter each time, and yep, be able to take all the credit.  Because that does make you wonder, who owns the photographs at that point?   The person who takes it or the person modelling?

But yeah, if a photographer worked with me and was able to do amazing things I couldn’t (and I agree, there are compromises when I self-shoot), then that would be a different story.

As to whether I’m going to continue on the the Molotov Cocktease shoot, I don’t know.  I’m not entirely convinced I can pull it off (though if I got the lighting perfect, and found the perfect spot to sit, then I guess I can), and also I’m not entirely convinced that I can “porn-ify” the outfit sufficiently to make it into a pornographic shoot.  That was kind of the problem anyway.  Too many potential disasters to keep track of so that getting hard and exposing myself wasn’t even on the cards at all.  I could go back into the studio and try to shoot in there but then the whole background would have to be done differently (which maybe isn’t a bad idea anyway). As to rolling the Jaguar into the garage, well, it doesn’t run, period and those things weigh several tons and had multiple flat tires so even rolling it downhill would end up being a nightmare.

I may do some kind of different outfit/junkyard shoot with it maybe in the daytime, who knows?  I also have a really cool idea to revisit the Snow White costume where she is attacked by horny trees in the Haunted Forest.  The idea being that I would bring my lights over to a woodsy area near my studio and  set them all up at  night.  But it’s going to take some more experimentation to figure out how to get the lights to go off reliably.

But enjoy “Harlequin Romance” for now.  I think what I do next will be a little bit more in that vein, something I can predict what the outcome will look like!


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The next Big Thing… “Tentacle Grape” (?)

Heeeeey.. and it’s a new shoot.  It’s the hentai tentcle shoot I’ve been planning forever.. Annnnd…   the results are… well… allright I guess.
So a little background first.  I have been planning this shoot for more than a year (actually more like since at least Nov ’16) and I think it was about a year ago that I first bought the pink pool noodles and sometime after that when I drizzled silicone caulk all over them, to simulate alien cum without using something that was actually sticky and a real mess.

And I sorta hemmed and hawed about what sort of outfit I wanted to use, and if it was going to really be any sort of clear anime character or something.  Anyway, I couldn’t quite get over the logistics of how I was going to self-shoot this since I usually shoot my own pictures with my camera-with-a-flip-out-screen-and-wireless-remote setup which even though these cameras are going on a decade old, it’s a process that actually works well for me.
And so I finally set things up in my studio though I had to make all sorts of compromises in the set, I had to mount the whole “couch” thingy made up of pink round cushions leftover from the Uranus set (which look like giant Tums if you ask me) up on blocks so that I could get the right angles without showing the floor.  So this is what the whole set up looked like out of frame.  Yeah, I brought out EVERY possible tripod and stand I had to hold these things.

And these things all had dowels on the end of them where the dildos would go,  glooped with silicone cum strings or whatever you’d call them. Probably the first thing you’re asking is why didn’t I get someone to help me on this shoot?  Well, more often than not, I’m ready to shoot when I can’t get people to help me, and I have people available to help me when I’m not ready.  And as it was, I had waited a month to get someone to help me shoot video of “Let Them Eat Cock” (coming soon), so once I decided I was ready for this shoot, well, I did it.

Anyway, back to the outfit.   My first idea was to use this old purple latex catsuit, but then I started getting some exciting ideas for anime inspired costumes.  And then I scaled it back since I didn’t know if shooting on all these pink tentacles and silicone cum was going to be a disaster or not.  So I decided the outfit wasn’t as crucial and there was only one way to find out if I could shoot this myself, and that was to run with what I had. The black and purple collar was a new thing I made for this, and the purple hair and elf ears were things that a wonderful fan got for me off my Amazon Wish List.  And the catsuit?  Well, it did have some problems so maybe It was better I got to use it one last time.  I’m not sure what you’d call this, but sometimes old latex clothing gets weird dark spots and thin spots on it as it ages.  And then it was extremely baggy in many places which looked terrible.  The only way I got it to work was a lot of photoshop work, which was fine.

But in general, I got some pretty good pictures, which wasn’t quite so terrible from a self timer even with my hands often wrapped up in tentacles.  I did the two camera set up where I set one camera low for low angles, and the other at the highest I could.  And eventually the catsuit ripped and came off, which was fine because it gave me a nice variety of photos.
So in conclusion, this shoot worked out pretty well, but there’s a lot going on and I thinkI need to get some different lights that, shall we say, don’t quite bathe everything in light.  Or I  just need to experiment with less light or targeted light, or strip down the idea to the bare essentials.  Which means that there is probably another, and better tentacle shoot in the future.  As for the name, “Tentacle Grape”?  Well..  let’s see if there’s an uproar over that, or not.  Since there was a lot of purple in the catsuit, well the working title stuck.

The whole set of 154 (and I was amazed I got that many useable shots) just went up at www.tara-ts.com


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Periwinkle and Pink

Which about sums up my newest upcoming shoot.   Something simple to tie you over until the next Big Thing comes down the pike.  It seems like it’s taken forever for Spring to come but now that it’s warmed up, I’m working on a lot of fairly complicated shoots!
But yeah, this is just a simple shoot cobbled together from existing costume pieces and stuff.  I dont know why I never paired this periwinkle corset with the pink hat until now but they do go together very well indeed.

Add to it a nice pink chastity device that matches (thank you someone for getting this off my Amazon Wish List!) and it all works together quite nicely!I’m still editing the photos and the full set of over 150 photos should go up on my site by mid week.  Then it’s on to the first of my big crazy ideas!


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Been feeling cruddy since Easter, but still updating video though!

So round the Monday after Easter I guess I caught the cold or flu that had been going around.  Why is it that it’s always at the tail end of the season when it starts to warm up, you get walloped with a bad cold?
So that’s why I haven’t been that active on social media, or even my ManyVids site.  Actually the first half of April has been dismal (income wise) in comparison to the second half of March.  That’s a little depressing but just tells me that my sales on that site are a direct reflection of how hard I am promoting and updating my ManyVids store.

Anyway, so I’ve caught up with the video updates here, updating most of the older stuff (standard def) and upgrading “Cotton Candyass”, “Flowering Tara” and “Sleazy Rider” to HD versions.

I do think though, that I need to get a brand new shoot of something done this week.. Also, I have video that I need to edit of “Jizzoline Queen” which of course is not a re-release of something you’re seen before..

So keep your eyes peeled this week! And check the video section for more videos as I add them.



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Massive huge video update/upgrade in the works

You may have noticed a lot of activity in my twitter or tumblr feed about videos for sale up on ManyVids and Clips4Sale

Yes, I’ve been reworking a lot of stuff that was previously released in pretty crappy resolution and quality.  I’ve pretty much been chained to my computers for the better part of a week, which is good, I’ve actually gotten a LOT done.

There is also some new stuff out there, and many of the new edits are longer than what was previously available.

And yes, they are all coming to www.taraemory.com.  I just wanted to get my Many Vids site up and running and actually making some money first before committing myself to sorting out the complete mess that is the video section of taraemory.com.

Please don’t feel like you’re getting the short end of the stick, it’s just that on those video sites, it’s fairly easy to update those pages and upload those videos through a browser, but to update my video page on my members site its far more fiddly, going through a program and making buttons and all that. (although I’ll try to re-use what I can)

So I wanted to get to a certain point with getting enough new material ready so that I have to update the members video area less often.  What will be going up on this site is the first half of a total overhaul, the second half to go online by the end of March.

Suffice to say, I’m basically throwing out ALL the current videos on my site, with a few exceptions:

  1. Valentines Day Every Day
  2. High Rise Hooker
  3. Sweet Tart Fuckdoll
  4. National Pornographic
  5. Another Slice of Cherry Pie
  6. Domestic Doll
  7. Pigtailed Fucktoy
  8. Pearls and Polkadots
  9. Strawberries and Cream
  10. Coquette Cumpot
  11. Cherry Bomb
  12. Slut in the Butt
  13. Minty Fresh
  14. Sugar Rush

All these are currently in HD on my site, but I may replace a few of the them with better versions as I think a few might have been exported with a lousy bitrate.

Also, all the .mov and .m4v formats are going bye bye.  It seems like .mp4 is the way to go.  The HD clips are in 1280 x 720 many are in 1920 x 1080 and I can’t tell the difference. My camera is a 1080i so when I output them at the bigger size, I get some interlacing that you can see that you can’t see on the 720 versions.  Some actually look better in 720 than in 1080 but probably all the new ones I’m going to make will be in 1080.

Speaking of new videos there are also 2 new videos going up that you haven’t seen before!

  • 15. Revolutionary Whore
  • 16. Carousel Rider.

Actually Revolutionary Whore is leftover from a few years back but never got released, because I was waiting around to do a whole DVD of Marie Antionette type stuff.   But then I got new boobs so this scene won’t fit in with that project, and it got forgotten about.  Also this scene is just on a swing, and that proposed project was going to have a script and everything, so best to release that old scene now.

I also have just shot video of Jizzoline Queen, which I will edit as soon as I can.  I also plan to shoot video of Let Them Eat Cock as that set is still up and running.

Ok, here’s where it gets complicated.  As you can see I have a lot of work ahead of me.

  • 17. Sweet Lolita
  • 18. Aviatrix
  • 19. Tara Overboard
  • 20. Pot O Gold
  • 21, Cherry RideI have gone and re-edited #17-21 in HD from the original footage.   This is a fair amount of work but sometimes I can whip out a couple of new edits in a day.  If I’m lucky, I just use the same Edit Decision List in Final Cut Pro, but I swap out the old SD captured footage for new HD clips using the same name and I just re-render it.  I’m actually surprised it’s this easy to do.Anyway, I still have to do the same thing with these following videos:
  • 22.  Big Top Tara
  • 23 . CandyLand
  • 24. Smoking Sexpot
  • 25. Showgirl
  • 26. Flowering Tara
  • 27. Diamonds are Hard
  • 28. Cotton Candyass
  • 29. Pony Play
  • 30. Smoke Latex
  • 31. Blue Rubber
  • 32. Cream of hearts
  • 33. Tight Spender
  • 34. Room Service
  • 35. Sleazy Rider
  • 36. Warrior Princess
  • 37. Throbbing valentine
  • 38 Gift

But since those will take me some time, i went and on a different computer, i’ve gone and tackled the older material, that was shot in standard def (720 x 480).   But probably the versions of these that are on the members site were even worse resolution that that, so i have gone and made 720 x 480 mp4s of these, using a  fairly high bitrate so they don;t look like crap.  Actually on one of them I tried blowing it up to 1280×720 HD and it looked exactly the same as looking at a 720 x 480 movie blown up, so there’s no way to “upscale” these.  These new versions of these videos are -as good as they are ever going to get.

  • 39. Easter Best
  • 40. Steeplechase Slut
  • 41. Snow Princess
  • 42. Dainty Dots
  • 43. Stripes and Garters (i tried an HD blow up of this, and it wasn’t worth it)
  • 44. valentine boudoir
  • 45. Filthy Habits (now in full 22 minute version)
  • 46. Animal instinct (called latex in the jungle on those other sites, because “animal” was a banned word!)
  • 47. Periwinkle Satin
  • 48. Brocade Burlesque
  • 49. Cocktoberfest
  • 50. Daisy Dick
  • 51. Peacock Goddess
  • 52. Bubblegum Broadway
  • 53. Ice Follies
  • 54. Birthday girl
  • 55. Pink Polka Plushie
  • 56. Polka Hearts
  • 57. Rawhide

So yeah, those videos are already done over, and the new as-high-quality-as-possible versions will go up on the next update  I still have to do the following ones though.  I can whip out several of these new mp4s in a day as i don’t have to re-edit them or anything.

  • 58. Naughty Elf
  • 59. Smoking sexpot (2004)
  • 60. Ahoy Tara
  • 61 Rouge Roses
  • 62 Valentine Tart
  • 63 Lucky (2003)
  • 64 Zebra Ponygirl
  • 65 Cleotara
  • 66 Little Ho Peep
  • 67 Cherry Pie 2003
  • 68 mouse trap
  • 69 nurses
  • 70 Tutu
  • 71 Mardi Gras
  • 72 Candystripe
  • 73 Pink and Black Dots
  • 74 Black Rubber ballet Boots
  • 75 picnic
  • 76 Amsterdam
  • 77 toy soldier
  • 78 feather tail
  • and whatever else were dvd extras of bonuses or things that I discover while I’m digging.

… and I’m sure I missed a few.   I’m sure there’s another 10 I’ve forgotten about, and since I have a few in the pipeline (and also some scenes I will release from the Uranus project), that will bring the total amount up to around 100 videos.  Also, when I made the previous versions of these scenes, I sometimes made them shorter than what was available on my DVD. Aat the time i was concerned that the video clips might cut into DVD sales. Of course, nowadays, that’s a moot point.  All these scenes are as long as they can be. In some cases like “Filthy Habits” they have grown to over 20 minutes of wanktrance.z

I also found some old footage of a scene I shot in the “Drink Me” Alice in Wonderland outfit, where I’m in that tiny little dollhouse room.  Yes, that was from like 2007 and it never got released. I was actually going to do a whole movie around that scene and it didn’t happen, so really, that scene should come to light.

Yeah, yeah, I know what some of you are saying.. Why am I even bothering with this old stuff?  Well, because anyone who is a new or long time member should get access to the highest quality versions of all my videos.   Also, I get more than a few complaints from people who join my site and say that the videos look like crap.  Which is true, a lot of the stuff on the bottom of the videos page DO look like crap.

So get everything looking as good as it can, and then let’s move FORWARD with regular NEW video updates!.  But I just need to clear out some space on my hard drives and clear out all the old before moving on with the new.  Yeah, I dropped the ball with the video section and yes, i should have been making video constantly over the last 10 years, but i wasn’t as productive as I should have been.  I can’t change the past, but I can get it looking as good as possible so that I can get more productive in the future.

And yeah, .mov and .m4v files totally suck.   I don’t know what I was thinking with those formats.

So watch the video page on my site for updates!  I will be chucking virtually everything on there, and replacing it with new versions, though for the time being, the standard def  720x 480 versions of videos #23- #38 will stay up and more slowly get replaced since I have to re-edit them.  But 1-21 are all done in HD, and 39-57 in highest SD quality and are ready to upload as soon as I tweak the pages themselves.   Probably videos listed 58 and up on this list, the old versions will just vanish until I put up newer mp4s of them as soon as I can.  I’m not sure if I will keep the super old webcam clips from like 2009 though.  Maybe it’s time they go, since they also look like crap anyway.

So in a nutshell, whatever you’ve previously downloaded from my site, well, you might as well just throw it in the trash and download the new ones (especially when we get the HD versions of  #22-38).

And then once I get everything looking as good as it can I’m going to go after the tube sites like a ton of bricks.  Ironically what is kind of funny about doing this is that the tiny crunchy 320 x 240 versions are more than welcome to stay on those lousy pirate sites!  You guys are getting the good stuff (which , it goes without saying, please don’t post them on the tube sites!)

So yeah, even though there’s only a handful of new stuff, this is necessary to get this big project out of the way before really moving on to more new stuff!  And Uranus, that’s happening, bear with me. It will be worth the wait..


PS  Actually one way to tell which video clips are newly made is that they will be the ones that have animated gifs like these.  That’s probably the easiest way to tell

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New Shoot: Chastity Circus

So I’ve been pretty quiet the last week or so as I’ve been pretty deeply ensconced in my office room doing lots of video editing and outputting video.  I’ll make the next blog post about that (because it’s a pretty big project), but in the meantime, yes, I also did a new shoot a few days ago.

So there might be a fine line between the sublime and the ridiculous.  Maybe I crossed it?  Maybe I don’t care if I did!  And if I did,  I crossed it in 10 inch heels.

So I did this shoot on the 12th of March, which was the same day I also did a video shoot of “Jizzoline Queen” (coming eventually to a video update).  As it is, my makeup was still flawless, my studio was warm, and I had bits and pieces of outfits in pink and black, so I threw them together and came up with this totally new outfit.

I have to admit, that more often than not, I get TOO obsessed with details and have a  hard time seeing that I can usually make a concept out of bits and pieces of other outfits.    Sometimes I get in that place where “Perfect is the enemy of good” and what happens is that nothing happens instead.
The only new bit I made for this costume was the hat, which I whipped up in a half hour.  And the ten? eleven? inch high oxford boots I had for like a year and almost forgot that I even had them, but it’s perfect for this outfit.  The hot pink clown wig was something that I bought to make into puffs, but after seeing how well I liked “Diamond Disco” I decided that ridiculous and over-the-top was what this outfit needed.

Oh, and what is it that I’m sitting on? It’s what’s left of the Captain’s chair from Uranus Needs Shemales/Up Uranus (whatever it will be called).  And yeah, I could have done like full clown makeup, but maybe that would have been a step beyond a step too far.  As it is, this is a nice shoot for those of you (and yeah, I know, it’s not ALL of you), who like the pink hentai craziness.  But hey, if you don’t like one of my shoots, just wait a while, you might LOVE the next one!
But yeah.  This shoot shows you all that really, I have no excuse for like being able to whip off a couple of shoots a week really.  Yeah, I know.. The idea of doing a few shoots a week (when I know that you’re lucky if you see 2 or 3 shoots a month) sounds impossible.  Actually, the spring is the best time for my productivity, and it’s the sweet spot between too cold to heat my studio, and so hot under the lights that no amount of A/C will keep the sweat off my face.  Truth is, my studio building is a little too big to economically heat and cool, and means that there are long dry spells in the winter where I can’t produce much out there.  Oh but once spring comes.. Watch out.  If I really , really really get my shit together (and like I said, I’m preparing another post about what else is going on), then I could probably shoot all my content for the year in a span of a few months.

But, first things first. I have a mountain of video to handle.  I admit. I have dropped the ball on my video production, and I’m in the beginning steps to picking up that ball and smashing it through the neighbor’s plate glass window.

Stay tuned for the next post, and what’s to come.  But for now, for my members, enjoy “Chastity Circus”.


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