Fuck Winter, and trying to figure out what I should do next.

So, winter has thrown a few wrenches into my plans.  As I had mentioned before, my Vegas trip wasn’t quite as wonderful as it could have been, and though I have a bunch of content, I’m the first person to admit I’m not super thrilled by much of it.  I know when my stuff isn’t up to snuff, and it’s taking quite a bit of self-convincing to get myself editing the other shoot.  There’s only so much you can do with hotel room shoots, and when I can’t control every aspect of a shoot, the results are never quite as good.  Plus, I think it’s pretty apparent that the stress of the trip is evident on the pictures themselves.

In short, I want to move on to whatever’s next.  And what’s next, is something of a mess.

Before I went off to Vegas, I had made a big push to work on some sets for like 4 shoots, which I had hoped to get done in rapid-fire succession.  But of those 4, “Glory Hole-elujah” was the only one that got done, and the other 3 are still in progress.

Trouble is, I had a double (triple?) whammy of misfortune after Vegas.  The trip wasn’t super profitable, plus I came home to a incresingly shitty political climate, which hey, affects anyone of my political leanings.  And though I did get away for a weeked to recharge, once I got back from that, I fell pretty sick with whatever the flu or cold that’s been going around.  And when you’re self employed, you just can’t pay yourself sick days.  Nope, you’re basically screwed if you can’t do the work and make the money to survive.  And though the website sorta keeps crusing along, a slowdown in website activity does affect memberships and people sticking around.

However, I do think I have to give myself some credit.  I ran into a couple of my peers in the trans porn website business, and was shocked to learn that there are some in my business that haven’t updated their member’s website in months or even YEARS!   I don’t really know how these people keep paying their bills because you’d certainly think it’s not from website membership revenues!  So maybe in the grand scheme of things, I’m not really doing that badly.

So, the weekend that I was sick, that was supposed to be the weekend that I was going to plant my ass down in front of the webcam and at least put in 6 or 7 hours of solid camming, and get myself a cushion of checks in the mail on the way to me.  The nice thing about working on a site like streamate is that if you need to make the money, you just have to work at it and it can be made, though I’m still learning when the busy times are.

Well, I wasn’t able to cam the weekend I was sick, but I bounced back a little this week.  However, some unpaid bills came up, and partly as a result of being sick (where your brain just gets focussed on not dying), I basically ran out of heating oil in the studio, rendering all that work done there on sets moot,  unless we got some sort of heat wave (like, in the 40′s or 50s)

So I’m like fuck, I gotta pay my homeowners insurance, or my car insurance, or get an oil delivery, or pay a credit card bill, and guess what?  I can only pick one of these, not all four.  And you can’t NOT pay your homeowners insurance, that’s really not a think you can just lapse on.  But without heat in the studio, All that month of effort on sets and whatever is just sorta going to waste.

I was going to try to do a “Valentine’s Camshow Tarathon”, sort of like the one I did for Christmas, which if you remember, wasn’t that much of a success, but then again, I’m like scrambling to do anything that can bring some money in even if at best, it’s some checks that I won’t see for a week or two.

But then I got some ideas for outfits that are sort of Valentines-y, but can’t shoot without heat.  So I put the word out on Facebook that there’s only one thing I want for Valentines Day, not lingerie, not chocolates, not shoes, not Amazon gift cards, none of that.  I  just need to get a friggin’ oil delivery for the studio so I can continue production on those shoots I had spent a month building sets for.

And I want to thank everyone who gave to my paypal  (tara_mistress@yahoo.com).  I got more than enough for an oil delivery, and probably that oil delivery will last me the rest of the winter, so THANK YOU EVERYONE, once I get the oil delivered, I can basically almost not skip a beat!  Sure, I’ll be doing some shoots in my house, but it was so frustrating to have all this set work done and then whoops!  no heat!  (and just so you know, my studio space is far too large of a room to heat with space heaters, in fact, I usually have to use a combination of the furnace in there, with some space heaters in places so that I can do anything out there in the winter).

So, I’m going to continue with some of these ideas for shoots I want to do, though none of them will probably hit the site before Valentine’s Day.  Not that I think anyone really cares if my “Valentines” themed shoot hits my site on like February 20th or anything.. I seriously doubt that there is a single fan of mine that woud look at something with hearts on it and sees is the week after and proclaims that all the context is lost becuase it’s late!  Who fucking cares?  I seriously doubt any fap-worthiness diminishes if it’s not super duper punctual.

Thank you for everyone’s help.  It’s snowing pretty bad out there today, but hopefully I’ll have the heat going in the studio tomorrow, and I’ll be back in progress.  And with any luck, things will warm up again by the end of the month so that some of this damn snow will melt too.

With a little bit more luck, maybe I’ll find some unreleased content or something to throw  up on the site in the meantime.  I have a couple of unreleased shoots from the last few years I’m not sure if I can make something out of.  I think the most important thing is that I can’t keep stressing myself out about this.  The worst thing is stress, because when I’m stressed, I can’t relax enough to take decent pictures that have a good erotic energy to them and that feeds into things spiralling downward and then the whole system starts to crash, and none of that is any good.

-Tara

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Upcoming photosets, “Squeaky Clean” and ???

So the first of a couple of shoots I did in Vegas just went up on my site.  Sorry I’m only now getting around to posting it, I’ve been sick as hell all February.  Just the bad cold that’s been going around.  For a couple days I was in a horrible twisted nightmare of a fever dream like laying awake in a pool of sweat smelling like ibuprofren, you mind going round in roundin circles, praying for death.  Whenever I have a cold or flu, it always seems to hit my brain first, then moved to other parts of the body once that fog clears.  I still have a little bit of a cough but I missed a weekend I wanted to be available on cam a lot,  and I’m scrambling to catch up.

But before that happened, I had gotten a new shoot out, just playing in my hotel suite bathtub, called “Squeaky Clean”.

It’s not a super special shoot, but if you’ve been missing some simple nude work, it gets the job done, and you people probably would rather see it than not.   Actually the last time I was in Vegas I tried a shoot in a hotel room which I’ve never released, since I don’t feel it’s up to snuff.  Another shoot I did was something simple during the day, wearing my Louis Vuitton corset.

I’m still editing these pictures, I don’t think it’s really my best look, but

So yeah, I’ve been pretty depressed about getting sick and just the way the whole world seems to be falling apart, and not feeling that AVN was the best it could have been, and not really liking much of the work I did down there.  I look at myself and I look tired.   If I can’t control the situation and lighting of my shoots (What I did in Vegas i had to make do with what light I had), I never really get results I’m happy with.

But it’s winter right now and I’m sorta in danger of losing my studio building and having to deal with all the stuff that’s in it.  I don’t have like an eviction deadline, but I’m not doing well enough financially in my business to  realistically be thinking about buying it, so that’s making me very depressed too.  If I work in my studio I just think of broken dreams (like that movie I was making) and dashed hopes.

Somehow I hope everything will work out, but I’m basically hanging on by a thread, when I know if I just had a little time I could get other money streams going in my life.  I can’t even imagine getting back into the job market.  All I can do right now is just try to cam and keep my site updated as much as possible and make as much money as I can there.

I don’t know, I’m really worried about the future.

-Tara

 

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AVN and well, whatever …

Hey, I’m back from the Adult Entertainment Expo / AVN awards in Vegas..

It was okay..  I did this last year and took notes as to what i would do better if I  did it the next year.  Well I must’ve forgotten my notes because I made the same mistakes and more!

Geez, where to start?   Well of course I had a flurry of activity before leaving though I managed to get ” Glory Hole-elujah!” done but there were supposed to have gotten more shoots done before leaving.

While I could’ve just thrown a bunch of random outfits in a bag, an event is always a good opportunity to make a whole bunch of new costumes.   So I worked on two, with this blue and white thing as a potential for an outfit in case I attended the awards

And then on  the last day before leaving, I whipped this one up, made partially out of a recycled prom dress and well, yards and yards of inch wide black elastic, I guess.  It didn’t come out half bad considering I whipped it up in hours and sorta winged it (winged it?  wang it?  wung it?)
And I shoved a whole bunch of other outfits in my bags and headed off to Vegas in rather a hurry.

So I get there and my troubles really began.  You see, I hadn’t used uber on my iphone in nearly a year, because well, I hadn’t traveled in nearly a year and I never use uber at home since I always have my own car.  Lo and behold I touch down in Vegas and uber is forcing me to upgrade to the newest version of their app, which doesn’t work on my iphone – period, which is stupid because it worked perfectly fine a year ago!! (You’d think it would be in their interests to allow an older version of the uber app to still work, but apparently that’s not important to them).

For the past few months a friend was supposed to gift me  their iphone 5 to replace my 4 but it never happened and instead another friend gave me a Samsung android phone instead, so I had brought it along just to familiarize myself with an android phone, but I had no idea I’d have to press it into service sooner than expected.

So I get to Vegas and I’m now forced to take taxis everywhere which sucks because 1:  they’re far more expensive than ubers, and 2: youre basically shit out of luck if you’re in a place where taxis don’t frequent.  And it turns out that I was in such a hurry to leave that I basically forgot a zillion things, most of which I could have gotten at a stupid ol’ dollar store.  So the first day in Vegas was spent just scurrying around getting those things.  And at one point I took a $15 taxi ride out to Home Depot (a mile and a half away) to get spray glue, because that’s the best thing to stick pasties on with, only to have to walk all the way back to the hotel because there was no way to hail a cab out there.

Oh and I recall someone once suggested not to waste my time getting my nails done before leaving, and just “do it in Vegas”.. Well, turned out I could never get an open slot at a nail salon there, and my time in Vegas was worth more than getting my nails done, so I never got a freakin’ manicure either!

In hindsight, I should have just rented a car, it would’ve cost me far less and given me the freedom to go anywhere I needed to go.  But of course, that didn’t dawn on me until it was nearly time to leave.

On Thursday after running all over town (who knew that you can’t buy stockings at Victoria’s Secret any more) I shot a scene with Kelli Lox and Christian XXX that we will see more of once I get the photos sent to me, so that’ll be another post.  For now, I can include a few behind the scenes selfies.

By the end of the day I got so frustrated with the phone situation, I basically paid some little hole-in-the-wall-shady-cel-phone-place-staffed-entirely-by-Asians to unlock the Samsung phone (it was on T-mobile and I’m AT&T) so by Friday I was able to use uber properly, and finally get my ass down to the convention floor.

I  started out wearing this little number until someone at the con warned me that pasties were not covering my boobs enough, even though I was walking across the hotel lobby and in the queue to get in just fine with them all out for the world to see.  Yeah, they wait until I get IN and NOW they tell me?  Of course, half the porn stars sitting at booths at the show are showing just as much as me, so I don’t know if it was just a problem someone had with me, but in any event I snapped a few shots of them, just in case I was warned again, i could just thumb through my phone and say “but did you tell HER to cover up?  double standards?”
So I got to the show sorta later than I wanted to (about 2 pm) and pretty much saw everything I wanted to see in about an hour.   I wasn’t even allowed to bring in a suitcase (last year they allowed it), so I had to check that at the hotel, and go back to it to change outfits, since they told me my tits couldn’t be out like that.  So I changed, into my Louis Vuitton counterfeit bag corset, which for me is pretty tepid.  And finally I saw something that piqued my interest.

There was one booth there, that had this thing that you walked into.  Its hard to describe it, but imagine something about the size of a TARDIS (well, the outside of one), and  you step in and it’s like maybe 200 camera and lights.  Then they take your picture and they can 3-d print a little statue of you! www.me-mento3d.com

So I see this and the guy running the booth, I guess knew who I was (because I actually got quite a few people recognizing me at the show), and was like “Tara, you gotta do this!  We can make you a statue and we can work out some sort of deal where you sell them to your fans”  (or something along those lines).  And I’m like “ooh, this is the coolest thing I’ve seen so far, but you haven’t exactly caught me at my best!”

So I do the math.  It’s 4 pm.   The convention floor is open till 8.  The uber ride back to the hotel is 10 mintues each way, half hour max.    Zip back, change into whatever is the most fabulous outfit I have, and get back here still in time to see whatever I missed.  I can totally swing it.  I had actually been pretty miserable on this trip up to this point, it was nice to get a mission.  Finally!  I had a mission!  I’d zip back change and get turned into an action figure!!

So that’s what I did.  I had brought along my “Fan Dancer” outfit but now with my new  boobs filling it out even nicer, and with pink hair too, I think it was a good choice for a little statue of me.  I have not heard back from them yet about it, but as soon as i do I’ll have an update on it, and how you can get a little Tara Emory statue!

The rest of the night was spent meeting some new faces in the trans porn and running into a few familiar faces, Natalie Mars, Isabella Sorrenti, Kelli Lox (we did a scene together with Christian but that will be another post), Tyra Scott, I saw Kylie Maria for a fleeting moment, and actually had a nice sit down with Gia Darling and we reminisced about the golden age on internet porn when making money off the internet was a helluva lot easier!

I’m always bumping into Morgan Bailey, Michelle Austin, Eddie Wood and I know there’s some names I’m forgetting, and if I didn’t include you I’m sorry.  I kinda didn’t have as much free time as I wanted to have.

So let’s see.  Backtracking a little bit, I shot a scene with Christian and Kelly Lox on Thursday afternoon, and a scene with just Christian on Saturday.  There had been a possibility of getting a paid gig on this trip, but it didn’t happen.  Because of that, I opted not to go to the awards show (it’s kinda pricey), and instead just hung about the convention and the circular bar at the Hard Rock during that time.

And yes, I was STILL working on outfits right up until the day of.  Yeah, I might have left a small mess on the floor…
And I think I can say that this one had maybe a teeny weeny bit of Vegas-period Elvis Presley in it, though it was completely unintentional.  But it was a happy accident, or maybe my brain was subliminally working on a different level.  I had wanted to add a white fur collar, but no fur was available (and I wasn’t going to cannibalize a coat for that), but it works fine with a fur coat over it.
And well, the last night was spent  at the TGirl night at the Las Vegas Lounge, and since I was flying out the next morning, there was no good reason to get super trashed or off on some Hangover movie style tangent.   I’m a little too sensible when it comes to things like that, I never ever party when I have to be all packed up and out of the room the next morning.

All in all, it was a pretty successful trip, though I feel I spent/wasted a lot of time finishing things that I was working on up until leaving, preventing me from maybe enjoying things that much.  Of course, it’s always on the last night that you’re in town that you meet a nice person who could have easily taken you all around town for your whole trip had you met them the minute you landed..  And had I gotten the paid shoot I would have been happy to have spent a little to go to the awards, but that’s fine, I created my own entertainment, and hey, I’m sorta circling around the perimeter of the whole porn business anyway, maybe next year I’ll finally do it right.

-Tara

PS   I’m leaving the shoots I did there for another post, as well as what’s happened since, because it’s been a rough few weeks since, oh…  January 20th or so… But I think you can guess what that’s about..

 

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Glory, Glory Hole-Elujah!

My my, I’ve been a naughty slut, haven’t I?  Serviceing all those hung guys in that filthy bathroom stall in the rest area off US Rt 69…

I’m such a cum dumpster at heart!

What a trashy tramp!

All those guys!  Good thing they used protection when they fucked me!  I’m such a filthy slut!!

I never said I wasn’t going to slurp it up, anyway?


So tra la la.   This shoot came out pretty good.. Very dirty.   I may have gone a bit far in some places, like maybe a tad bit overboard with the cum-filled condoms, but this is an erotic vignette after all.  I’m really pushing the hentai angle, so hey, might as well push it all the way.

Enjoy the new set, it just went up on the site tonight.  The other sets and shoot are still in progress.  I might have to switch gears over the next couple of days for my preperation for AVN, which basically snuck up on me quicker than I realized.  Oh well, at the very least, I’ll just throw a bunch of outfits in my bags and work with that.  Whether I go to the awards or not is still up in the air, but I’m going to try to be prepared if I can manage to go, becuase I know there’s a red carpet and a great opporunity for pubilcity.  But I got like 2 days left to make things unless I end up bringing outfits ot finish.  Uh oh, I have a feeling it’s going to be one of those sort of trips..

 

-Tara

 

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The Tara Emory 3.0 Graphics Package is Up! (mostly)

My big site Graphics Package Overhaul is finally up and running, for the most part. Now my site is finally Tara Emory 3.0!  For the splash page, I kept a similar theme, but from my newer shoot “Pastel Pet

Come check out the new www.taraemory.com (aka www.tara-ts.com) 

You see, the “portal”, or “free area” of my site hadn’t been updated for a while, and it really needed an upgrade.    Hopefully it better represents the goodies within, and how versatile a fantasy merchant I am.


I had been working on sets lately, but was just full of ideas for the site, and I wanted to get it out the door.  I had been working these graphics over the last 6 months, so I wanted to release them before I changed my mind (again) at how to sell myself.  So instead of picking a theme and running with it, I went with about 3 themes, and just decided to run with it.  From Steampunk to Candyland to my Garden to..  well..  Stuff like this.

Yeah I know, some of it sounds ridiculous, ” A slice of Americana Pie”  And yes, someone once called me “The Martha Stewart of Tranny Porn”  .

You know, because there’s the product called “Tara Emory”, and well, then there’s me, Tara.   Maybe what I wrote tells  you all more about myself than I thought..

So check it out, and tell me if you like it.

I think a lot of it sound nuts, but it’s so well written, I was like I can’t cut this, this is great!  But I’ve removed the bio page that was there (it was getting on 10 years old!)  and if you click on the links, you’ll be taken on a little tour.  I have to say, I’ve been enjoying this whole laying down text captions down on photos.  Maybe I’ll do a whole shoot where I caption it, like the old porn magazines did..

The big parts I haven’t redone yet are the Store section and the Social Media hub.  I did incorporate my twitter feed in this part of the site, and even though it’s the same video from before, it is formatted bigger and you can find the buttons.

The Social Media page will sort of be a sort of Grand Central Station for contacting me, whether its for customer support, or booking me for an event.

But for now I’ve got the first part up.  I really have gone domestic, haven’t I?  But I think that’s what people want to see more of, and I’m opening up a lot to all of you!

In any event, it’s going to be a super busy month, with AVN coming up and another shoot with Christian XXX.  My new shoots coming up and my new career image!  It’s nice to feel invested in my career again!

-Tara

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Going for four!

So I’ve had a couple of very productive days since the turn of the new year, but as usual have been too busy to report on anything!

So I have a separate studio that, even though it has it’s own heat, can be a bit tough to heat when it’s really cold outside (like single digit F).  We haven’t quite had those temps yet so I want to cram in as many shoots as I can in my studio and do them within the next week.

This way, I’ll also have a good backlog of shoots to edit when I just want to stay in pj’s all day and edit stuff on the computer.

So I made a list of 25 concepts for shoots (yes, 25!) and I’m concentrating on four.

I’ve been wanting to do a new interpretation of “Cherry Pie”, with the working title of simple “Another Slice of Cherrie Pie” (not sure why I spelled it differently, possible just to keep it distinct).

I think I’m getting sick of the pink and white wall, but want to squeeze one more use out of it before I repaint it.

I’ve got a lot still to do, but think “diner”.  Now whether that works with the existing old Cherry Pie costume, I’m not sure.  I’m also debating roller skates to this.   More on this shoot later..  I’m quite proud of my chrome spray painted pieces of $0.33 poster board.  Much easier to bend than if I made them with metal.

The second shoot was just something dungeon-y, so I set up all my equipment (of which I seem to have accumulated a lot) in one area.
But the more I looked at it, the more the boring black wall bothered me.  It just needed a little class, so I did this.
So I just quickly ruled out some vertical lines and painted it complete freehand with a small roller.  I didn’t spend hours on it with masking tape and all that.  Just freehand.   Which has now made me not feel too guilty about painting over any other striped wall, as it can be repainted really quickly.  It’s not perfect, but it is consistent with itself, and it gives the dungeon set just a little more class.

The third shoot I don’t quite have an outfit figured out for, but as you can see, it’s going to be a glory hole bathroom stall!

The pink toilet is vintage and is actually I got from a bathroom demolition was doing. It’s going to go into a bathroom renovation I’m doing this year, so its nice to also use it in a shoot.  The tiles were something that I had that I’m never going to use.  However, I did decide that the graffiti back wall was too busy so right now I’m trying this color, though I might switch to a pink and light blue scheme, to bring the floor and the porcelain together.

Yeah I know, not too exciting right now.  But still, I was painting one set, and then while it was drying, painting another set. It was warm enough today that I could get away with spraying paint outdoors.  When you get these rare warm winter days, you need to take advantage of them.  It was helpful painting these pieces of poster board.  Yeah, you heard that right, pretty much all my sets are held together with scotch tape and posterboard.  They’re invariably designed to only last the duration of the shoot, and maybe at the most, a video shoot too.

And the fourth set was just something classy and purple, though I need to make the outfit to go with this.    I think it’s going to be my big “Flowering Tara” hat, but the outfit is going to be very minimalist, and maybe an honest attempt to take a shot at making some real delicate lingerie.  This super frilly comforter was something that someone got me from my amazon wish list!  Thank you very much whomever that was!  So yeah, I’m just going to whip up an outfit that compliments the pink and purple.

So the plan is that once the four sets are ready (2 are already good to go), I’ll do a double shoot two nights in a row and then I’ve pretty much got all my January shoots in the can.  I just have to hope it’s not going to get Arctic out there!  I think I have a few more days!  By tomorrow I expect all the sets to be basically ready to go.

So I’m inspired and motivated!

Oh, I’m also going to AVN and shooting with Christian XXX in a few weeks, but I’m not thinking about that yet, just want to get these 4 shoots done first.

Probably for AVN I’m going to pick 2 outfits I’ve designed from the list that best represent where I’m taking my art.  I want to make a real impression on everyone so I have to think what’s going to really grab them.  Cosplay/pink/bimbo/hentai/futanari let’s see what I come up with!

-Tara

 

 

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Here comes Bimbo Claus right down Bimbo Claus Lane..

Whose that working until the wee hours of the morning making pictures for all the bad little girls and boys that belong to my site?  Well that’s be me!

When Santa's away, Mrs Claus will play with all the elves!

So enjoy your Christmas present!  Oh, by the way, I did manage to do a little  bit of camming right after taking these photos, late into the night of the 23rd/into the 24th..  And it was moderately successful so I guess the camshow Tarathon worked out ok.

Merry Christmas to each and every one of us!
-Tara

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New high-resolution galleries are coming… slowwwwwly

So I decided to start on the massive project of taking everything that I’ve shot in the past, oh, 13 years or so, and working straight from the originals to make new high-res finals of them.  For everything that I’ve shot since 2006, this means I can do roughly 1500 x 2000 pixels (or maybe I should just go straight for the maximum that I can do?  which is like 2000 x 3000 but that’s only if I don’t crop the shots…)  Anything that I shot before 2003 is on pretty bad quality equipment, and the stuff from 2003-2006 I think the highest res I can get away with is 1500 x 2000 and that’s a stretch.  But in general,  the jump in resolution on anything I shot between 2003 and 2007/8 should be very noticable.

This is of course, a HUGE job since it’s basically doing the most time consuming part of my photo taking process all over again.  I was thinking that I’d start with some old Christmas galleries, and going through these old pictures is bittersweet.

When I look at myself today, I don’t see the years so much, and often times, I can get the lighting perfect on a new shoot that not a lot of photoshop is needed.  When I look at these old shoots, it’s remarkable how little touch up I need to do.  Really just a blemish here or there, and some filters just to make the contrast pop.  But it’s bittersweet because it’s reminidng me of a much happier time.  I had my own apartment and I was living within my means, and chaos had yet to spiral out of control. I was making pretty good money and travelling all over the world for events and stuff.  I was dating a beautiful model and we were going to fetish events together.  These were GOOD years, and I see it looking at the raw pictures I shot.   And I know these were GOOD pictures too, even though it seems like I always had a horrible time with white balance on that particular camera.

Oh, new logo too!

The ulitamately tricky thing about going through all the trouble of these high res versions, is that it begs the question, will people notice the difference?  If you’re looking through the galleries and you have the pictues “scaled to fit”,  you’re probably not going to notice unless your screen is a 4k or 5k screen.  My own personal computer equipment is not that sophisitcated so I only notice the difference if they’re not scaled to fit.  Please, my fans  let me know what your monitor resolutions are so that I can get some feedback.

not for all of them- I actually switched logos part way through editing this set

My entire backlog of photo shoots is a great asset and one that should be made as marketable and as good looking as possible.   I’m not sure you could say that about a lot of other models.  Sadly, this is not as simple to do as taking my existing shoots and running them through Lightroom or pre-stored Photoshop actions.  I really do have to go back to the originals and work from them.    That “zoom in and enhance!” is only a trope you see on tv and in movies.  Software and pixels don’t work that way.

Anyway, Merry Christmas all. I’m still debating as to wether I try to whip up a new shoot for Xmas or what.

-Tara

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Taking a break from the Camshow Tarathon to make some refinements..

So I’m not sure what happened but Tuesday was sort of a slow day webcamming. I’m not sure if I just got on too late or what, but I went to bed pretty upset about the whole thing.

I was kind of thinking of doing this outfit up for a new shoot, and maybe tweaking the blonde to silver in photoshop, so I’d really be Mrs Claus!

I only get upset with my career when I feel like things aren’t getting the attention they deserve.  Well, actually, that sounds awful.  I should rephrase that.  I get very jittery and nervous whenever I feel that my future is threatened.

I don’t often stop to think about what I have accomplished. Sometimes I just get caught up in the flaws.  But I know that I had been working really hard to make my camshow “Tarathon” a pretty big event, though I guess I hadn’t really gotten the knack of how best to rope in my own members to see my show.  I figured if I was looser and announced my shows shortly before going on, that it would be better than the old system of setting rigid start and stop times like a week in advance.

Tuesday night's outfit. It must be cold outside, I sorta got a red nose!

 

So maybe the idea of a non-stop camming marathon doesn’t really work.  When things are slow, I can’t escape feeling that I’m wasting my time looking into my webcam trying to rope the occasional traveler on streamate into a show.  The first couple of nights were good, but Tuesday sorta blew, and when I got up Wednesday, I didn’t really know what to do.

Add to this the extra stress of not really having done any of my Christmas shopping yet and I actually have something of a phobia regarding gift giving.  You see, years and years ago I once made a gift for a girl I was seeing, and I got slammed about it because it was “too personal”, so after that, I tried to never make gifts for people.  Then growing up in a hoarder house I have this thing where I hate giving or receiving something that the recipient won’t use.  I’m like the worst Secret Santa if there is ever is one.

So I sorta needed to do some of my shopping today, so I could at least get some of that out of the way.  And usually that means I end up going home in defeat after visiting 12 stores and not finding exactly what I need.

Anyway so I’m under a lot of stress. Maybe the week before the holiday is the worst time to do a holiday themed camshow marathon. Maybe I should have picked the week after Christmas and before New Year?

So I had to take today off.  Like I said, the worst feeling is sitting there in front of my laptop coaxing customers and the occasional taraemory.com member.  But what shocked me is that not a lot of my members were even aware that live webcam shows were going on.. And I plastered notifications all over my site (well, on the gallery pages ), though maybe that’s going to need something a bit more obvious perhaps.  If I can come up with a way of having a “ding dong” sound and an alert come up so that anyone, anywhere is on my site knows that I’m in fact online and on cam- that would be great!

But the worst thing about a slow night is the feeling that I could or should be doing something better, and not being able to do it.  My camming computer is my laptop, which isn’t the same as my main Photoshop computer. There’s not enough screen to be able to do both at once unless I bring my laptop into the office room and use both computers, but my office isn’t really set up so well to cam.   When I try that, it ends up being a compromise, and people complain that I seem distracted.  Wasn’t it Chief Miles O’Brian that said if you try to do two things at once you end up doing neither very well?

Camming last night while watching the tumbleweeds blow by and not being able to work on the site was very frustrating, so I needed this break today to at least get some bits to the site finessed.  I may have also been a bit snippy to my fans too.

Anyway, what work did I do?  Well, I am still working on the biggest parts of the graphics package update on the part of the site that a person might see if they had yet to join (this is the most important bit and needs to be perfect, so I’m not uploading it piecemeal), but I added some extra flourishes to Galleries ’16. ’15 and ’14.  It kind of looks like I took the existing pages and added some fancy tablecloths and doilies underneath the buttons for each shoot.   So if you’re a member, check them out and let me know how you like them.

When I look at the older galleries, I know they’ll need all new buttons (I like the rectangular ones with the hard edges- I don’t know what my fascination was with buttons with edges fading to white), and when I look at the finals of these pictures, they may need to be re-processed from the originals to make them bigger.

Whenever I embark on that huge project, I’ll probably start with some of the much older galleries and work my way up the calendar.  The biggest improvement will be on the pictures shot from 2003-2009.  And anything I’ve shot since “birthday Girl” in 2006 is on the same camera that I use today.   Actually, if you want a good example of my old final size vs my new final size, check out “Birthday Girl” shot in ’06 but I recently upscaled, and compare it to the shots right after.  You can see the improvement.  But going through all those galleries is a huge project, something to tackle when my income has stabilized a bit and when the memberships get back up to a better level.  It’s possible that photoshop work is something I cam do while I’m cam, since I’ve done that sort of thing so many times.

Sunday night's outfit, jingle bells!

The other thing is that I may actually want to try to squeeze in a new holiday themed shoot.  Perhaps a new shoot in an old Christmas themed outfit.  Since I dragged everything out for the camshow I found a few pieces that can easily be tarted up for a new spin on them.

Unwrap Bimbo Claus! Monday's outfit

Tuesday night's outfit. It was wearing the tartan corset from "Santa Baby", but it came off pretty quickly

 

So I’ll be back live on cam the evening of Thursday the 22nd.   Maybe if I really have my act together I’ll be camming at the same time as taking new pictures, though that’s always juggling too many things!  I’m not sure I’ll be whipping out some of my crazier Christmas ones (Krampus, Smutcracker), it’s just a matter of them being pretty restrictive to cam in.  “Chicks with Dickens” might get a new whirl though.  Sadly I don’t have the old sleigh and that set kicking around.  I’ve done quite a lot of Christmas shoots over the years!

See you tomorrow!

-Tara

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Don’t miss the “Tara Emory Holiday Camshow Tarathon”! (and some other news)

- Which is a fancy name to basically say that the week before Christmas, I’m going to webcam as much as possible!
I’ll be pulling out many of my classic holiday outfits!  So let’s get cozy with me the week before Santa comes!  Christmas is always super special in my Erotic Candyland!

I’m not going to set a super rigid schedule, just keep tuned into my tweets to see when I pop on and off.

I may have to have a break of a few hours here and there to do shopping or other things, but I plan to be on cam more often than I’m not, and I have cleared my calendar of any other things.  Call it my Christmas gift to my fans!  Tune in at streamate.com or as always, members of my website get full access!  You can also call it my own gift to myself, as I really need to give my income one last push before the end of the year.

In other news, I’ve gone and fixed a bunch of links in the galleries.  Apparently there weren’t buttons for the 2013 through 2015 galleries if you were in some of the older galleries, you might have totally missed a few years worth of hot photo sets.  So if you’re a new member, you might want to check back and make sure you didn’t miss them.

So I went and fixed those links, and I’ve also been thinking a lot about making it easier to find my live cam page when you’re deep into my site.  All these changes are but a very small part of all the glitches and bad paths I need to fix on the site.  I’m still not quite done with the full graphics packge that I was talking about, but as I work on it, I find all sorts of weird nooks to my site that haven’t been updated in a while as well.

I’m not sure what I’m doing for a Christmas shoot, it’s possible that one might happen at the same time as the camshow tarathon.  I had been working out in my studio this week but it got Very Cold, Very Fast, and for the next few days we have single digit Fahrenheit  to contend with.  When it gets that cold, it’s really tough to heat my studio, so on those days I work in the house as much as possible.  They say that all you need to make porn is have a warm room, and if you don’t have a warm room, it’s not very fun to make porn!

So my Camshow Tarathon starts this coming Sunday, December 18th and runs to the 23rd.  Just every moment I can be on cam that week, I will be!

Hope to see all my website members!

 

-Tara

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